Dear 2012 - last day of the year poem

'Dear 2012

Dear 2012 you reached your end

so many days spend

one moment to another

learning, growing, getting rid of smother.

Dear 2012 thank you for all

huge, tiny, big and small.

You changed my world

you made me feel kind of twirled

in lifes alive energy

for me to see

what life really means

spilling the beans

and pick those that help me grow

and make my being glow.

Thank you dear life

for showing me what I deprive

myself from living

and deny what others are giving

for me to see aware and make room to share, 

so that I am opening

what others are willing to give

and not being stuck in 'was-hoping-to-receive'.

But really coping 

and live

what my soul and heart need

to nuture this awaken seed

of joy and love and peace

living in ease

letting go of Ego

finding another credo

to live life

to dance soul jive

to follow my  hearts beat

to meet with lifes wonders

letting go of matter that creates ponders.

Letting go to fall

freely and call

life, to catch me

fetch to center me in my moments

before life ends

to be utterly aware of beauty

and not just seeing duty,

no, to live

to give

to be me

in glee

peeling away tightening layers

revealing my real prayers

from my being

not just for me to be seeing, 

but to share this sparkling force from inside

to make life pride

what it created 

and not crusaded

by myself

destroying all on the shelves

no, just clearing off false

and making room to grow

in a natural flow

for the truth of my inside

that did hide

finally coming into the light

and being a guide

to find my meaning

leaning into trust

and not 'fear-full-must'. 

To spread my arms wide

let go of that makes me feel tight.

And welcoming all new to come

join my unique pilgrimaging path along.

Grateful accepting 

not expecting

living moment to moment

showing me involvment

of being alive

and arrive

inside of my core

to explore, 

life again

making all a huge experiment

not to offend

just living my full possible potential

choosing aware how moments are spend

finding and living the essential.

Thank you 2012

you were an elf

who challenged me to my limit

making me sometimes feeling timid

but knowing I need to face

to give all, space

and learn what life wants to teach me, 

what it means to be.'

- by Anke Martin New Year Eve 2012