Some, you can not let go - saturday poem

'Some, you can not let go

Some you can not let go

but it is not a holding onto

it is more like deeply touched inside

somehow not visiable but in hide

beneath the layer of skin

making you grin

from deep down in your core

making alive every pore

taking your inside adventurer to other shore

discovering new waters

using all as starters

to get guided by life

and stay in drive

through your living

and leave the cycle of missing

but knowing deep in you

it is true,

some are there

who really care

and you share

an invisiable bond

somehow fond,

just possible to sense

and combined with your intuition

enhance,

your essentials

making you grow into your potentials, 

those, of which you would have never ever dreamed of

and it just made POFF!

into a new way of living

you open yourself to all receiving and giving

seeing what life has to offer

and turn into a real light lover.

So, some you can not let go

because it still helps you grow,

having this sensing

which is not fencing

but a wonderful being carried feeling inside

to help you fly wide

and let go of other matters

which are not of flatters

and free fall backward

without fear a 'crash' could hurt.

In real deep inside trust

that this letting go of control is a must

and just ask life and wind

keeping you from pinned

on things happening,

on saddening and maddening

and help you to stay non-attached

make you feel like just hatched

into a new living 

forgiving

 resting and nesting

in your own safe sacred space

you only know where it is,

this place.

And some remind you

to stay true

who you are

like a bright shining star.

So, some you can not let go

because they still help you grow.'

- by Anke Martin 2013

In honor to those who help me grow

PS from in between vaccum cleaning: 'Performance needs to make sense!'
YEP! And my sense to learn?
To provide useful/helpful service from my side.
And this my opportunity to get on my own legs again, partly.

And this 'liberation' is for me right now, sense enough to go for all.
This is my sense,
going back to work and giving myself this 'independence',
feels very good.
I am able to, by myself.
Well, and learning to ask for support.
LOL.....which is necessary to learn ;)
With my highly sensitive sensing and this alone, rocks!
I learned about my system and work with it now. 
Because I can, I gained the skills over the last year.

Learning rocks!

So, does your performance have a sense?

Off to keep vaccum cleaning.

'In 20 Jahrne wirst Du Dich mehr aergern ueber die Dinge, 
die Du nicht getan hast, 
als ueber die, die Du getan hast.
Also wirf die Leinen und segle fort aus Deinem sicheren Hafen.
Fange den Wind in Deinen Segeln.
Forsche.
Traeume.
Entdecke.'

- Mark Twain

PS around lunch: 
How is your saturday so far ? 
Smile account?
Heart beating in joy?
Soul flying?
Piratess/pirate on adventure?
  
 http://www.37days.com/2013/01/your-daily-rock-think-fresh-thoughts.html

http://www.37days.com/2013/01/your-daily-rock-keep-it-very-simple.html 

PS after lunch:
This week I read already twice about life and that you can view it as complicated or you can view it as complex. 
Well, what should I say, a poke for me to realize,
I used to see my life as too complicated and 
it turned into complex. 
Because with 'complex' you keep your 'ability-to-act', your power to change ways, 
thinking your life is too 'complicated' you blockade yourself with thinking this.
You put the block in front of your road yourself, 
you shut yourself down, by saying your life is complicated. 
It is not, it is complex and complex is good. 
Complex is layers of layers of integrated matters into your being and that is how life is creating you, with you, giving yourself the opportunity, even matters are complex you can create out of this. 
And BEING plays a keyrole in this. 
Mindfulness/awareness.
How you view your life. 
Because when you are 'rooted-centered-anchored' inside of yourself, 
you are not anchored somewhere else on outside matters and 
you can spread your wings whenever you want and
JUMP into lifes twirled energies going with the flow/opportunities
to create new ways, 
even it is complex, 
you still will usually sense the essential in it and go for it. 

And knowing this, realizing this, 
what the difference is between complicated and complex 'viewing' your life, 
is huge 'perspective' change.
So, what is your life? 
Complex?
Or complicated?

And I am so grateful that I can ask questions and get information out of first hand, 
because this is the most valuable information you can get.
Experiences others are willing to share to make a difference for others, 
so understanding or relating is possible.
Asking for help surely rocks! 

THANK YOU LIFE you are very good to me.

And thank you to all who are more than willing to share with me!
To help me learn, 
to help me get a 'feeling' into matter that is new for me
and I am more than willing to find out what matters and what not.

What is essential and what is not.

And creatively openly viewing it all from a distance and maybe connecting one thing with another finding ways to reach and create a space to learn and grow.

PS: Back from a long walk......felt nice.
Sigh....slowly downshifting.
All this new. YES. Time to downshift.
Some 'fast-making-me-calming-down-vibe' for me?

It would be nice.
Just like that, recharging......yes sometimes I still long for this 'sacred-space' once in a while
not created by myself.
Closing my eyes and just create it for myself.
NOW.
How is your afternoon?

PPS: Dear blue sky and sun, where are you, it would be time for you to see again.
Just to soak in this day light alias sun.
  PPS from later: Sometimes just enduring 'inside-feelings' without resistance is the best.
And before you know it, it passed.
SIGH.
Still a challenge sometimes, not to resist.
;)

http://www.myvideo.de/watch/8837091/Mumford_Sons_Lover_Of_The_Light