Dear sunday.....

...your name says 'SUN'-DAY BUT it is awful GREY outside, it should be more like Greyday.....lol....crazy creative brain. Anyway since we are 'silly' writting, 'DEAR WINTER', I don't like snow shoving all the time but I rather do that than this awful grey all the time, for a sunny and white winter but so far just pretty much grey.....that sucks.....aaaaahhhhh looks like some more hiding time in the STUDIO with lot's of colors - smile-. So let's see. This weekend is kind of easy going and I found already a lot of FREEEEDDDDOOOMMMM time. Bike ride yesterday, collage time friday and yesterday, music listening time, reading time - another Osho book done (and yes there are 3 kinds of love out there. HA!).

Sorry for the poor light in the photos....unfortunately that's this grey outside when it's sunny again I might take another one of this collage, because it's more vibrant in colors...bummmmmmeerrr!!!!

"Without meditation, energy remains passion; with meditation, the same energy becomes compassion." Osho

Oh and before I forget here are the photos of the collage from yesterday. It's called 'travel inside' - since that is my topic lately....the inside adventure, a spiritual travel that feels so good and whole, that makes you smile inside. It's amazing that the most value happiness is so close and you only can find it so close - inside of yourself!

'Glaube ist Liebe zum Unsichtbaren, Vertrauen aufs Unmögliche, Unwahrscheinliche.'

- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

' Faith is love for the invisable, trust on to the impossible, improbable.'

- Johan Wolfgang von Goethe

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“ Es ist nicht einfach zu begreifen, dass die spirituelle Freiheit etwas ganz Einfaches ist, etwas ganz Gewöhnliches, überhaupt nichts Besonderes, und das ist gerade das Kostbare daran!“

- Ram Dass

' It is not easy to grasp, that the spiritual freedom is something really simple, something very ordinary, nothing special at all, and that is just the preciousness of it !' 

- Ram Dass

Philipp Poisel - Eisener Steg

Philipp Poisel - Als gaebs kein Morgen mehr

Philipp Poisel - Durch die Nacht 

Philipp Poisel - Wie soll ein Mensch das ertragen 

Philipp Poisel - Mit jedem deinem Fehler

maybe some more coming....-have a great 'SUNDAY' in your heart and soul - SMILES -'Anke-in-music-headphone-lalallllaaa-land' LOL :)

Philipp Poisel - Froh dabei zu sein

'Und plötzlich weißt du:
Es ist Zeit, etwas Neues zu beginnen
und dem Zauber des Anfangs zu vertrauen.'

-Autor: unbekannt'

Philipp Poisel - Wo faengt dein Himmel an

And suddenly you know:

It is time, to start with something new

and just to trust the magic of the beginning.'

-Author: unknown

Thomas Kerntke - Allein 

Kilian - DU 

Philipp Poisel - Halt mich 

FUNNY - It is SNOWING RIGHT NOW OUTSIDE......lol.....
PS: Did you watch snowflakes fall before? Like those tinny little ones, they kind of dance in the air, up and down until gravity is stronger and they finally lay down on the ground....interesting.....mmmhhh.....

Here is an hour - Philipp Poisel unplugged auf neo music 

PS from later later: Carneval costume sewing time.....wonder how it looks finished.....:))))
A sneak from in between sewing...isn't that a delicious combination???? - broad grin-

SCREAM.....ahhhhh this costume is going to be iridescent... I am excited to see it all finished. The skirt is almost done.....I just love this color combination........:)))))

Enough sewing for today.....my dear maschine was working hard today.....soon to be continued - 
so have a great sunday evening :)

Need some color??????

I have some for you! Since it's back to GREY and dull here, might as well hide in the STUDIO, lol. Here are some photos and the collage from last night -the dry version-. So enjoy your weekend, I am working on my carneval costume....the head-fighting-accessory is in progress right now....freestyling....it's the last photo.

Okay, that's all for now, smiles, Anke :) Enjoy the colors!

STUDIO TIME.....lallaaaallllaaaaa....................

Andreas Bourani - Wunder (click on that song)

Let's see if there are some more photos coming tonight...off to let the sparks fly, lol :))))

PS:
Fresh from production, some photos from the process. And from the finished 'wet-collage'. A 'dry' photo tomorrow. Enjoy! The title is 'Manches braucht seine Zeit' - ' So many a thing needs its time' 

Enough blogging for today - have a good night, write to you tomorrow - smiles :) 

Birdy- Skinny love 

Birdy - Shelter


Christina Perri - Distance

The matter with asking...

'Astonishment is the beginning of understanding.' - Platon

....asking what other people meant, is worth a try. Because a lot of times misunderstandings can be cleared. You let the other explain what they really meant in case you got confused by something said. We all have ideas, concepts in our brain why and because, created from experiences and believes. But sometimes you are all off and just misunderstand a 'not-to-be-meant-provoking-sentence' as one and if you just try to figure it out by yourself it might lead into unnecessary confusion - the protection wall around you, is going up and a real involvment/interaction to solve it, is not possible. So like I said yesterday, letting the water settle, not getting identified with it right away and not just automatic reacting, viewing it from all angles and trying to understand and therefore may ask questions, not to attack or harm, but to understand more, trying to find out what the other really meant is worth a try and it has nothing to do with being weak. I think it needs a certain braveness to be open and 'accept-your-confusion' as well the answer you might don't want to hear. But than you still can view it from all angles and find a way what to do. Plus that's where compromissing is coming in. There are many ways to compromise with things, two poeple don't have the same opinion, but what is wrong with that? Sometimes you just have different views and when you don't want to give them up, you still can make one step towards the other and show her/him your acceptance of her/his whole being. It's kind of how you respect yourself and the other. Giving yourself the freedom to change standpoints and the other the chance and freedom to change her/his standpoint. 

"Denn das Große ist nicht, daß einer dies oder jenes ist, sondern daß er es selbst ist; und das kann jeder Mensch sein, wenn er will."

Sören Kierkegaard

'Because great is not, that one is this or that, but rather one is itself; and every human being is able to, if wanted.' 

Soeren Kierkegaard

So, do you take the courage to ask when you don't know how things are really meant? 

Smiles, Anke :)

Other than that- motivation level - LOW LOW LOW LOW.....I guess I should have went to bed earlier, lol, or I just push it onto the weather, grey, foggy, rainy, wet and dull......or I just have to give myself a break, since yesterday was crazy wild packed with things to do, to take care of and manage. I enjoyed my class last night though....just got to love COLORS and creative vibes.......broad smile. 
 
And some motivational music: R.I.O feat. U-Jean - Turn this club around


So, off to continue my day, and not to forget the standard sentence lately: "Let's see whatelse is crossing my way today, I feel like sharing"  -> ♥♥♥♥ Lol from the heart and soul.....seeee yaaaa around - 'blinking-one-eye-Anke' :)

PS: Well, my upper legs are still a little in pain....can't believe that this special muscles is not used while biking...but now I know ;) and hopefully by tuesday the legs will be ready to go again, lol....walking steps is still painful....autsch autsch autsch....lol ;)

PS from after lunch: Here another motivational music link - perfect to clean up the messes here, sigh ;)......Sean Paul - She doesn't mind

Do you need some 'inspirational-piling' today? Here you go, lol....

lol....okay, typing error.....hello :)

Bangles - Eternal Flame - yes I AM A WOMAN....so, you guys, out there reading my blog, don't even bother to click this link, it's a girl song, lol - smiles :)

Coldplay - Paradise  - just because I heard it a minute ago and I really enjoy that song.....:)

Confusion and clarity...

...when your waters are troubled by something = confusion ( stone falling into calm water), waiting is an option to let the water settle again = clarity. Which doesn't mean the 'stir-up-creating' is gone but when you are centered again found a distance, don't identify with it right away, and the waters are literally clear again, you can view 'that-stir-up-ceating'-object/feeling/thought'  from all angles in a sharper attention, with an open heart and mind. And then decide if there is some action needed or just let it be how it is.
I am still viewing it from all angles......trying to understand, trying to relate, trying to not judge in a certain way. I need more time and I am good to myself giving me that space and be patient. Because any-fast-forced-decision is not a whole one and I know for sure I can't go that way again, half-hearted just to 'keep-a-false-peace', because that is not authentic to me. I guess you can say being authentic is important to me. How about you ? What is your understanding of  'being-authentic' and how important is it to you?

'Sei freundlich zu dir. Dann bist du auch freundlich zu anderen.' - Lama Thubten Yeshe

'Be polite to yourself. Then you are also polite to others.' - Lama Thubten Yeshe

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'Verantwortlich ist man nicht nur fuer das, was man tut, sondern auch fuer das, was man nicht tut.' - Laozi

'You are not just reponsible for what you do, but also for what your are not doing.' -Laozi

So, let's see what else my day is bringing....smiles, Anke :)


PS: Did you know that a lot of 'meaningful' words are starting with a 'con' in the beginning? Like confusion, conceive, confident, condense, confirm, constrict, conflict, conclude, condition, condece, concrete, concise, conducive.......and a whole lot more....Just something I realized last night, lol.....never thought about it, but it's kind of interesting. ;) -> ♥♥♥ A 'curious-me-conclusion' Hahaha another 'con'-word......lol, smiles :)

'Es gibt nichts Schöneres, als geliebt zu werden, geliebt um seiner selbst willen oder vielmehr trotz seiner selbst.'

-Victor Hugo

PS from the afternoon: COFFEE TIME....here a virtual Latte macchiatto (is that how you write that?) for you.....;) 

Fatboy Slim - Gangster trippin

BZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......did you here that buzzing sound? Yep! That was me....busy bee coordinating house tasks, kids demands and preparing for class tonight.....bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz SSEEEEEE YAAAAAA! LOL :) -> ♥♥♥♥ Crazy-creative-brain

Can't hear that enough: Coldplay -Charlie Brown

New discovery I just heard: Cool beat......Dione Aura feat.Rock Mafia - Friends

Have a good night!

Don't make me kneel down today......

Patches of BLUE

.....pain, pain, pain, lol! But that doesn't really matter because: music + dancing + fun + new movement + new challenge = Bliss ->♥♥♥♥♥♥ The happy hormones were produced last night and hearing the birds this morning on our walk was a nice addition to my-feeling-good-inside -> broad smile - oh and not to forget the radio channel SWR 3 is playing all kinds of music from the 90's....songs I haven't heard in a long time :)

Soooooo, so far all good, let's see how the day develops and what else crosses my way I feel like sharing.

Have a great wednesday and here, some of my inside sparkles FOR YOU!!!!! CATCH!!!!!! :))))

D-reams -Things only get better

Culture beat - Inside out

Aerosmith - Crazy

Van Halen - Can't stop lovin' you

Offspring - Pretty fly

Dr. Alban - It's my life

Happinez share on FB:

'Sei achtsam mit dir selbst. Sei achtsam mit anderen.

Erinnere dich daran, dass es manchmal ein wunderbarer Glücksfall sein kann, nicht zu bekommen, was du dir wünschst.

Verbringe jeden Tag eine Zeit lang alleine.

Öffne dich der Veränderung, aber vergiss nicht deine Werte.

Erinnere dich daran, dass Stille manchmal die beste Antwort ist.

Lebe ein gutes ehrenhaftes Leben, denn wenn du älter bist und zurückdenkst, wirst du fähig sein, dich ein zweites Mal daran zu erfreuen.

Beurteile deinen Erfolg danach, was du dafür aufgegeben hast, um ihn zu erringen.

Nähere dich der Liebe mit unaufhörlicher Anstrengung.'

Auszug aus einem Mantra des Dalai Lama

Die Fantastischen Vier - Tag am Meer

PS: No kneeling down and careful 'steps walking'....autsch autsch autsch, lol :)

Gianna Nannini + Eduardo Bennato - Un Estate Italiana

Green Day - Basket case 

Wamdue Project - Kind of my castle 

Metallica - Turn the page  

Echt - Alles wird sich aendern

PS from late afternoon: AHHHHHH -scream- I am glued to the radio....what a fun day to listen music.....the 90's rock! YEAH! -Mischievious smile, heheheheheehehhe- And when you think you can't dance with 'leg-pain'...well it works, lol :) Can't stand still to that music :))))))

DJ Prezioso - Tell me why 

Guano Apes - Open your eyes 

Passion Fruit - The Rigga Ding Dong 

Taxi Sharia - Sackgesicht 

PS from the evening: reality go me tonight....things to think about, I guess you can say I am confused....has been a while since I was confused like I feel right now. So no good no bad judgement about it, just that is there - confusion. See you tomorrow. 

Fury and the Slaughterhouse - Radio Orchid 

Metallica feat. Marianne Faithfull - The memory remains

I feel muscles in my leg I did not know they were there....

...until tonight, lol. Well, I gave my first ZUMBA class a try and I have to say I LIKE IT, I really LIKE it. Okay, my coordination legs-arms did not quite work out so well, but better than I thought, and hey, I am rusty concerning 'organised dance moves' - lol. So, I am getting there and I think I will continue. My friend and me had a lot of fun! Yeah to my new grounds - moving in a group to cool beats, lot's of hip shaken and fun.....ah.....happy sigh...ahhh.....legs hurt...so much for you-think-you-are-fit, lol. I guess bike riding is not quite the same or is not using THOSE MUSCLES.......- all good though. Looking forward till next week. And it's kind of like old times, when I used to be in a Jazzdance group, some familiar faces tonight, smiles :)

Good night, smiles 'leg-muscles-in-pain-but-happy-Anke' :)

Thank you to my friend, for asking me, if I would like to come :)))))))

'Ice-wheeling' or ice skating on four wheels

....this morning there was a really thin, tricky layer of ice on the road. It was like driving on raw eggs, never know when the car is going to swing off in an uncontrollable direction. So 'no puhsing the pedal to the metal' this morning, instead it was full concentration. We made it without danerous situations but sometimes you just can shake your head how other people drive, instead of keeping a safe distance they 'hang on your behind'. But maybe those people are not even aware of the road condition, until it's too late, who knows.....so, off to start my day, a little tired but okay.

Have a good tuesday!

See you around, smiles, Anke :)

PS: Sorry if there are spelling mistakes in here, I corrected already some, lol, maybe I can feel that sun storm that is hitting the earth some time from today on...maybe that's why my kids didn't want to go to sleep and I didn't sleep that good....wonder if that has an effect on humans as well, even they say we can't feel it, but why shouldn't you be able to feel it somehow, especially when it's such a powerful magnetic energy???? Yeah, yeah, I know my curious me, lol :))))) Especially some scientist ( can't remember his name) tried to influence the brain with a magnetic field and found out that your 'brain's behaviour can be changed and 'normal' people (with no special creative drawing skill) are more creative and draw better.....so do you feel a little different than on other days? That might be the sun storm, lol !!!! :)))) So, don't be so hard on yourself, if your 'personal computer' alias brain is behaving weird today or until the sun storm is over - smiles - ;) And who knows, maybe you will be super creative the next days........

Train - Drive by 

Train- Hey soul sister


Train- Drops of Jupiter (live) just today it's drops of sun....lol :)

And a quote I just discovered from a FB share (in german):

'Das Paradox unserer Zeit

Wir haben hohe Gebäude, aber eine niedrige Toleranz, breite Autobahnen, aber enge Ansichten. Wir verbrauchen mehr, aber haben weniger, machen mehr Einkäufe, aber haben weniger Freude. Wir haben größere Häuser, aber kleinere Familien, mehr Bequemlichkeit, aber weniger Zeit, mehr Ausbildung, aber weniger Vernunft, mehr Kenntnisse, aber weniger Hausverstand, mehr Experten, aber auch mehr Probleme, mehr Medizin, aber weniger Gesundheit.

Wir rauchen zu stark, wir trinken zu viel, wir geben verantwortungslos viel aus; wir lachen zu wenig, fahren zu schnell, regen uns zu schnell auf, gehen zu spät schlafen, stehen zu müde auf; wir lesen zu wenig, sehen zu viel fern, beten zu selten.

Wir haben unseren Besitz vervielfacht, aber unsere Werte reduziert. Wir sprechen zu viel, wir lieben zu selten und wir hassen zu oft.

Wir wissen, wie man seinen Lebensunterhalt verdient, aber nicht mehr, wie man lebt.

Wir haben dem Leben Jahre hinzugefügt, aber nicht den Jahren Leben. Wir kommen zum Mond, aber nicht mehr an die Tür des Nachbarn. Wir haben den Weltraum erobert, aber nicht den Raum in uns. Wir machen größere Dinge, aber keine Besseren.

Wir haben die Luft gereinigt, aber die Seelen verschmutzt. Wir können Atome spalten, aber nicht unsere Vorurteile.

Wir schreiben mehr, aber wissen weniger, wir planen mehr, aber erreichen weniger. Wir haben gelernt schnell zu sein, aber wir können nicht warten. Wir machen neue Computer, die mehr Informationen speichern und eine Unmenge Kopien produzieren, aber wir verkehren weniger miteinander.

Es ist die Zeit des schnellen Essens und der schlechten Verdauung, der großen Männer und der kleinkarierten Seelen, der leichten Profite und der schwierigen Beziehungen.

Es ist die Zeit des größeren Familieneinkommens und der Scheidungen, der schöneren Häuser und des zerstörten Zuhause.

Es ist die Zeit der schnellen Reisen, der Wegwerfwindeln und der Wegwerfmoral, der Beziehungen für eine Nacht und des Übergewichts.

Es ist die Zeit der Pillen, die alles können: sie erregen uns, sie beruhigen uns, sie töten uns.

Es ist die Zeit, in der es wichtiger ist, etwas im Schaufenster zu haben, statt im Laden, wo moderne Technik einen Text wie diesen in Windeseile in die ganze Welt tragen kann, und wo sie die Wahl haben: das Leben ändern - oder den Text löschen.

Vergesst nicht, mehr Zeit denen zu schenken, die Ihr liebt, weil sie nicht immer mit Euch sein werden. Sagt ein gutes Wort denen, die Euch jetzt voll Begeisterung von unten her anschauen, weil diese kleinen Geschöpfe bald erwachsen werden und nicht mehr bei Euch sein werden. Schenkt dem Menschen neben Euch eine innige Umarmung, denn sie ist der einzige Schatz, der von Eurem Herzen kommt und Euch nichts kostet. Sagt dem geliebten Menschen: „Ich liebe Dich" und meint es auch so. Ein Kuss und eine Umarmung, die von Herzen kommen, können alles Böse wiedergutmachen. Geht Hand in Hand und schätzt die Augenblicke, wo Ihr zusammen seid, denn eines Tages wird dieser Mensch nicht mehr neben Euch sein.

Findet Zeit Euch zu lieben, findet Zeit miteinander zu sprechen. Findet Zeit, alles was Ihr zu sagen habt miteinander zu teilen, denn das Leben wird nicht gemessen an der Anzahl der Atemzüge, sondern an der Anzahl der Augenblicke, die uns des Atems berauben.'
(Ende Zitat)

Diesen Text schrieb George Carlin, ein US-Schauspieler und Komiker anlässlich des Todes seiner Frau.

PS: All ready for tonight - new sports shoes- for inside, since my outside ones look like mud balls, lol....new grounds, let's see how fast my brain can adapt to new movements or if it will freeze bad into total confusion, because when my movements will be like I type today ( lot's of mistakes and missing words), it's going to be funny....... lol.....-broad grin-  more tomorrow ;)

So, when was the last time you tried something new?

Enough....

...rules putting down and being strict, enough loudness, sibling fights, enough ' Mama's for today, enough things which need to be done, enough explaining....sometimes things are just enough or more then enough and especially on those nights when you would/could need some calm, your kids decide NOT to fall asleep easy BUT I am hungry and need to take care of myself NOW. So off to give me a 'music-headphone-treatment' and some FOOD! 

'Trying-to-recharge-from-enough-Anke'

Have a good night and hopefully a relaxed evening.

Some flowers for you and on a mission....

Some fresh green on the dinning room table.....feels good :) Counting days till spring, lol.
Concerning the rest, I am on a mission. I finally found the motivation to start with my carneval costume. I am going as an 'amazone - woman fighter' but not like that Lara Croft kind, it's going to be a mix between the avatar style and a fighter woman. So yep, be aware when you cross me this 'Fasching', I might hiss -lol. Let's see how it turns out, this year I am alone creating, my sparkling-idea-companion from last year is too busy right now. I have rough ideas how it should look like, some preparations are made already, last night, now I have to work out the details or better, they work out themselves while putting it together - broad grin-

Well that's all for this morning, see you around. Enjoy the music link, cool beat......lallaaaaalllla dancing through the rooms, lol.

Smiles, Anke :)


Sean Paul - She doesn't mind

Yelawolf feat. Kid Rock - Let's roll

Mary J. Blige feat. Drake - Mr. Wrong

PS from the afternoon break: I am just browsing through new art materials....all I can say  is: AAAAAHHHHHHH! To much cool-fun-exciting-new-stuff BUT the look at the price, gets you down to earth super FAST! Bummer....May, May, May....4 more month for hopefully the right tools to get going to the next level with my Studio ;)