Breaking the patterns......

...and taking a blogging break, I do not know how long. LOL..I will see. And a perfect fitting inspiration showed up in my inbox today from Patti Digh:

http://www.37days.com/2013/05/your-daily-rock-break-old-patterns.html

THANK YOU!

So, I wish you a wonderful time, till I am back. TAKE CARE :))))

Smiles, Anke :)

Do not feel like blogging today ;)

So, I might not be back today, who knows..Interesting!  And feels good. LOL...smirk.
 
I wish you a wonderful DAY. 
 

Smiles, Anke :)

When life is a single state of exception or it seems like that, in both directions....

Imagine Dragons - Demons

'When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale
I want to hide the truth
I want to shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
When the curtain's call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl
So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made
Don't want to let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't want to hide the truth
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go
Your eyes, they shine so bright
I want to save their light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide'

 - Imagine Dragons

 

 And who is not living a life of exception? And what is normal? And how many individuals in this world face overwhelming matters more than once in their life? How many face bitter fate you do not even know, all those happenings which do not show up in the news, the silent once, away from public?

And why do you need to go through this?

What does life want from you?

What is life teaching you?

The question, what is good about it?

To make you grow?

To 'develop' under pressure, in the tough times, when the 'way' gets tight to purify your real essentials?

Like a diamond is getting 'sandpapered' towards its real beauty?

And what is that beauty of a human being?

ALIVENESS in its full strength and WEAKNESS.

OPEN HEART.

OPEN SOUL.

OPEN BEING.

NO MATTER WHAT.

And still even happenings 'shake' you through hard inside, like a major earthquake,
life is teaching you to find the way towards your core,
because sometimes this is the only 'silent' and 'safe' spot you can find
in stormy times.

So, what is the good thing about state of exceptions?

Learning how to let go inside and get carried by lifes flow.
In its ups and downs.

And know in challenging times, hard or wonderful strenous,

there will be times to recharge again 

and if not, 

CREATE THEM!

PULL BACK, find those spaces, let go, and just BE!

Be good to yourself,

give yourself all the love you have and expand fully into warmth.

 

Good morning, 

I wish you a wonderful day!

Smiles, Anke :)

PS: The album from Imagine Dragon - Nothing left to say is for exceptional states wonderful music, well for my soul anyway,

what is your MUSIC for exceptional states?

To spread your arms and just BE carried by sound waves?

;)   

PS: And with every HIGH or LOW you face in openess, keep your heart open,

the deeper you grow into your BEING state inside,

the deeper you learn how to rest into your core.

So it is dimensional growth and that is what it makes it so strenous!

It takes more energy at first to grow so deep and still after you just can smile,

because it teaches you valuable lessons of strength and fullfillment

that you know it is worth all.

It all has a sense,

it all is there to support you grow.

Into a HUMAN BEING.

With an alive beating heart and not a hardened closed one.

PS: THANK YOU LIFE! Sometimes is just makes me speechless how much love others share with me, care and strength. THANK YOU, deep from my heart and soul.   

PS from later morning:

WOWWEEEEE....sometimes pulling yourself BACK into the NOW is a challenge and it amazes me that when the 'waters' of life are smooth, it is so easy and the real challenge is when you face 'wild-rough-waters' and even it is a struggle to center in the now again, especially when you are weak or out of energy, it is possible because you trained it in good times, you trained it in neutral times and when it really matters, is the tough times, that you can 'pull all strings' you know to CENTER in the NOW and HERE AGAIN, it is worth the effort, to push a little more, so you can free yourself from the past and the future. Maybe this is an inspiration to others dealing with challenging times and maybe this supports you to push a little further to free yourself from whatever you need to bust free from. And mostly it is the inner demons, worries and fears which hold you caged in the past or future. So, let's push those 'tightening' bubbles around us and bust free into the NOW and here! And in times like that, this gratefulness for this pilgrimaging is very very deeply alive! THANK YOU! I pulled myself back into the now and it was worth the 'struggle'. Disciplin and enduring usually pays off, concerning inside matters, doesn't it? Thank you Patti, for teaching me wisdom that was burried deep inside and I 'digged' it free! :)

 http://www.37days.com/2013/05/your-daily-rock-stop-comparing-yourself-to-others.html

Sigh. 

PS: Time to let go of some matters, 'attachments', opening hands and letting go.

 

Actually this morning I drove myself free.....driving fast.....lol....pulling the engine up to 4500 rmp so the cylinder is gaining it's full performance again, FELT AWESOME!!!!

And this car has POWER no, more than before...;)

Sigh....with the perfect music for the moment.

And you?

How are you freeing yourself inside?

http://www.myvideo.de/watch/5637205/Enya_Only_Time 

http://open-mind-akademie.de/2013/04/was-bitte-ist-realitaet/ 

http://open-mind-akademie.de/2013/04/entscheidungen/ 

'Great Teachers can lead you to the Doors of Understanding;
But it is up to you to enter. '

-Lao Tzu 

Thank you to all those who leaded me so far.

PS: A poking question from my BEING inside - Well, since you POKE either way, no mater how you are as a woman, why not stand in my full strength of heart and soul and POKE other SOULS and HEARTS to find the way to their full STRENGTH?

Am I getting brave and couragous again?

YES!

Why?

BECAUSE I am in my STRENGTH AGAIN,

in the NOW.

And it feels fullfilled.

VERY FULLFILLED!

THANK YOU LIFE for GUIDING me back to the NOW!

Yes I 'took' the moments so choose wise.

So let's work with the DEMONS inside and give them all the LOVE you can,

so they become your FRIENDS inside.

SMILES to YOU!

PPS: THE NOW has the full POWER.

Come one with me into the NOW.

NOW!

JUMP! 

BE FULLY HERE WITH ME!

FEEL THE ENERGY, feel the aliveness, feel the freedom, feel the love.

FEEL YOUR STRENGTH.

TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND JUST BE HERE, NOW!

Just breath!

NOW!

Nothing matters right now, except NOW!

LOL...one of those free laughing out loud in surprise!

JOIN ME because LAUGHING is 'PULLING' you right away into the NOW

COME ON LAUGH WITH ME.

And I just realized something, I need to live my humor and my joy more, and share this even in tough times, 

even I not really be able laugh, 

and still humor might support me and the others to gain distance and gain STRENGTH in the now again.

Interesting!

And to be able to live this 'poking-challenging-to-grow',

I need to let go of outcomes, I need to let go of expectations,

I need to let go of roles, I need to let go of attachments,

I need to let go of fear, 

I need to fully expand into love, 

I need to be able to take care of myself emotional 100 %,

I need to take 100 % responsibility for me,

I need to choose fully aware what to live,

I need to expand into  

free-ness, lightness and trust into life.

LOL...oh....my......what an insight.

INTERESTING!

:)     
  

Imagine Dragons - Nothing Left to Say/ Rocks 

 

"When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you;
Till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer;
Never ever give up then;
For that is just the place and time that the tide will turn."


- Back Towards Light

SO TRUE! And I wish all of you reading here the STRENGTH to endure and wait for the tide to turn.

  I wish you a wonderful afternoon.

SMILES :) 

Stay in your strength.

Stay in the NOW. 

 

PS from the evening: Long day. Back from parents night for our next school child.

Was good.

My day was surprisingly good in general.

Pulling myself back into the now is magic.

How is your evening?

I wish you a wonderful rest.

Smiles, Anke :)     

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/3-principles-for-accepting-yourself-and-being-authentically-happy/ 

http://www.ramdass.org/RD/on-self-judgement/ 

'Be a good human being, a warm-hearted affectionate person. That is my fundamental belief. Having a sense of caring, a feeling of compassion will bring happiness of peace of mind to oneself and automatically create a positive atmosphere.'

  - Dalai Lama

-> constant pulling back into this state.

'The only difference between a happy person and one who gets depressed is how they respond to disasters.'

- Ven. Ajahn Brahm

-> Humor is poking me...yep....and I so used to get depressed...sigh....glad I found ways to respond differently.

http://www.upworthy.com/the-earth-shatteringly-amazing-speech-that-ll-change-the-way-you-think-about-adulthood-4

-> WONDERFUL! SMILES.

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/accept-yourself-as-you-are-even-when-others-dont/

'The most precious gift we can offer others is our presence. 

When mindfulness embraces those we love, they will bloom like flowers.'

-Thich Nhat Hanh

'Cultivating self-love is the tallest mountain we will ever have to climb, yet it is the core of everything we do in life.'

- Randi G Fine

-> SIGH..oh yes..tell me about it! It sure is!

'Just as the light of a candle has the power to dispel darkness in a room, so also the light developed in one man can help dispel darkness in several others.'

  - Sayagyi U Ba Khin

  'When your soul awakens, you begin to truly inherit your life. You leave the kingdom of fake surfaces, repetitive talk and weary roles and slip deeper into the true adventure of who you are and who you are called to become. The greatest friend of the soul is the unknown. Yet we are afraid of the unknown because it lies outside our vision and our control. We avoid it or quell it by filtering it through our protective barriers of domestication and control. The normal way never leads home.'

- John O’Donohue

-> 'The greatest friend of the soul is the unknown'...okay now I KNOW, LOL...and still INTERSTING!

http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2013/05/13/a-prayer/

'Most of us do not take these
situations as teachings. We
automatically hate them. We run
like crazy. We use all kinds of
ways to escape -- all addictions stem from this moment when we
meet our edge and we just can't
stand it. We feel we have to
soften it, pad it with something,
and we become addicted to
whatever it is that seems to ease
the pain.'

~ Pema Chödrön

Good night.

 

LOVE BEING in the MOMENT - 200SIX

PS: Grateful I am out of intense 'blanc-state'.

SIGH.

Dear life, sometimes you are a challenge to live.

 Aren't you?

YEP.

I wish you a wonderful evening.

Smiles, Anke :)  

Why do I share?
To grow,
because I have to give,
because I need to share my joy,
because i enjoy sharing.  

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/make-a-tough-situation-good-one-question-that-changes-everything/

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/two-lies-we-learn-as-kids-that-keep-us-stuck-and-unhappy/ 

http://vimeo.com/planetarycollective/overview 

http://www.zeitzuleben.de/23478-mit-hochsensibilitaet-leben/ 

GOOD NIGHT.
LETTING GO, just like that.
Saying thank you.
Smiles, Anke :)

I wish you a wonderful rest.

Blanc.

 

Blanc. Gaps. Fully in uncertainty is a challenge. Nothing more to say. Being good (lol...hahah..forgot those words:) to myself and giving chances. And sometimes you need to take action, to stay a clear STOP. And it amazes me how fast this can come out of the blue, even you kind of sense it weeks before and still, to reach such a point, THAT FAST. One step after another, outcomes fully open, total uncertainty, being human and living with humans, a challenge, isn't it. We all fight our battles inside, we are warriors of heart to find a way living fullfilled, some manage this better others have difficulties over difficulties and it pretty much lays all in the ways of thinking and that amazes me everytime. THE WAY OF THINKING can DESTROY you or CREATE you. It can PULL YOU DOWN or UPLIFT YOU and I am not talking about FEELINGS/EMOTIONS, I am talking about THINKING, those endless 'thoughts' in this 'unique' brain we have.

So, hello Monday. I am exhausted and still doing okay. That is life. 

I wish you a wonderful DAY!

Smiles Anke :)    

'Liebe für Gegenliebe’ stirbt jetzt aus

Wenn du nur liebst, damit der andere dich ‚zurück liebt’, hat das mit der Liebe nichts zu tun. Die ‚Handelsgemeinschaft der Liebe’, der Deal zwischen zwei Menschen, die nicht in ihrer eigenen Liebe stehen, wird jetzt auf der Erde verschwinden, weil die Liebe selbst, aus der wir alle geboren wurden, mobil macht und uns jetzt machtvoll an ihre Gesetzmäßigkeiten und ihre wahre Natur zurückführt.

‚Liebe’ ist gründlich missverstanden worden in unseren Ehen und Partnerschaften. Darum gehen so viele jetzt auseinander, ja werden auseinander genommen, damit jeder den Weg in sein eigenes In-sich-Stehen und –Lieben findet und aus seiner Bedürftigkeit, seiner Verletztheit und dem Klammern am Anderen heraus kommt.

Die ‚besondere Beziehung’ zwischen Frau und Mann (und auch zwischen gleichgeschlechtlichen Partnern), die als ‚Überlebensinsel’ in einer scheinbar harten, ungerechten und lieblosen Welt dienen soll, stirbt jetzt aus, damit wir begreifen: Liebe ist das, was wir in Wirklichkeit sind. Es ist kein Tun, es ist unser natürliches Sein, unsere Natur, an die wir uns jetzt erinnern können.'

- Robert Betz

'When another person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeply within himself and his suffering is spilling over. He does not need punishment; he needs help.' 

-Thich Naht Hanh

'Don’t let your sorrows drown you. Use them to deepen you, humble and soften you. Use them to build your empathy and compassion for the world. Your sorrow was never meant to overtake you; like everything else in life, it is only a tool. To beautify and strengthen you.'

- Hamzi Korme

'Once you realize that the road is the goal and that you are always on the road, not to reach a goal, but to enjoy its beauty and its wisdom, life ceases to be a task and becomes natural and simple, in itself an ecstasy.'

-Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

 

'Take time each day to seek out stillness, to find that sacred spot. Let your mind and soul be at ease. Don't grasp and grab for the magic and miracles. When you reside in that place of stillness, the joy, miracles, and magic you're seeking find you.'


- Melodie Beattie

http://www.37days.com/2013/05/your-daily-rock-youve-got-the-power.html 

'Question : Are you happy..?
L.Buddha : For what was received..?
Question : Are you sad..?
L.Buddha: For what was lost..?
Question: So you are not happy nor sad..?
L.Buddha : You are quite right..!'

 http://iloveyoucurrie.blogspot.de/2013/05/curries-gratitude-9-may-2013.html

How is your day so far?

  And letting go of 'DAY 64-65 I became a disciplin of freedom. Truely inspired, swept off my feet to fly the first time backwards without control. Powwow. Grateful.'

 PS: You need disciplin to live fullfilled.
YES. 

Seems like in 'BLANC-states' you are letting go of so much matters
and it brings you right back to your true strength,
even those 'moments' are not fun to deal with.
And still.....it makes you grow.
It tests you good,
all what you have learned already.
Interesting.

     
'Lass tief im Menschen uns den Sinn des Lebens suchen,
ein unerschoepftes nie genug geles'nes Buch.'

- Christoph August Tiedge   

PS: The art of 'sharing'.
What does that mean to you?

http://oshocanada.over-blog.com/article-20018238.html
   

'We must look at
ourselves over and
over again in order to
learn to love, to
discover what has kept our
hearts closed, and what it means
to allow our hearts to open.'

  -Jack Kornfield

 BLANCS - moments where time, space and non-essential do not matter anymore.
States of floating in groundlessness and still be in your strength,
and still those moments are strenous,
especially intense ones,
those ones when the 'way' got tighter and tighter before it is wide open again.

Those 'pressure-moments' when a part of your diamond inside is getting polished to the real unique radiance.

    
Interesting a year ago I read this book:
http://www.goodreads.com/work/quotes/1179777-manual-do-guerreiro-da-luz   
-Warrior of light by Paulo Coelho

And I can remember how I had to giggle while reading....yes because I could so RELATE.
SIGH.
A year passed and learning was tremendous!
WOW.
WOW.
WOW.
All those lessons.