The artist in me....

Need some color??????

2012-01-28T15:07:00.000+01:00

I have some for you! Since it's back to GREY and dull here, might as well hide in the STUDIO, lol. Here are some photos and the collage from last night -the dry version-. So enjoy your weekend, I am working on my carneval costume....the head-fighting-accessory is in progress right now....freestyling....it's the last photo.

Okay, that's all for now, smiles, Anke :) Enjoy the colors!

STUDIO TIME.....lallaaaallllaaaaa....................

2012-01-27T19:37:00.002+01:00

Andreas Bourani - Wunder (click on that song)

Let's see if there are some more photos coming tonight...off to let the sparks fly, lol :))))

PS:
Fresh from production, some photos from the process. And from the finished 'wet-collage'. A 'dry' photo tomorrow. Enjoy! The title is 'Manches braucht seine Zeit' - ' So many a thing needs its time'

Enough blogging for today - have a good night, write to you tomorrow - smiles :)

Birdy- Skinny love

Birdy - Shelter

Christina Perri - Distance

The matter with asking...

2012-01-27T09:13:00.002+01:00

'Astonishment is the beginning of understanding.' - Platon

....asking what other people meant, is worth a try. Because a lot of times misunderstandings can be cleared. You let the other explain what they really meant in case you got confused by something said. We all have ideas, concepts in our brain why and because, created from experiences and believes. But sometimes you are all off and just misunderstand a 'not-to-be-meant-provoking-sentence' as one and if you just try to figure it out by yourself it might lead into unnecessary confusion - the protection wall around you, is going up and a real involvment/interaction to solve it, is not possible. So like I said yesterday, letting the water settle, not getting identified with it right away and not just automatic reacting, viewing it from all angles and trying to understand and therefore may ask questions, not to attack or harm, but to understand more, trying to find out what the other really meant is worth a try and it has nothing to do with being weak. I think it needs a certain braveness to be open and 'accept-your-confusion' as well the answer you might don't want to hear. But than you still can view it from all angles and find a way what to do. Plus that's where compromissing is coming in. There are many ways to compromise with things, two poeple don't have the same opinion, but what is wrong with that? Sometimes you just have different views and when you don't want to give them up, you still can make one step towards the other and show her/him your acceptance of her/his whole being. It's kind of how you respect yourself and the other. Giving yourself the freedom to change standpoints and the other the chance and freedom to change her/his standpoint.

"Denn das Große ist nicht, daß einer dies oder jenes ist, sondern daß er es selbst ist; und das kann jeder Mensch sein, wenn er will."

Sören Kierkegaard

'Because great is not, that one is this or that, but rather one is itself; and every human being is able to, if wanted.'

Soeren Kierkegaard

So, do you take the courage to ask when you don't know how things are really meant?

Smiles, Anke :)

Other than that- motivation level - LOW LOW LOW LOW.....I guess I should have went to bed earlier, lol, or I just push it onto the weather, grey, foggy, rainy, wet and dull......or I just have to give myself a break, since yesterday was crazy wild packed with things to do, to take care of and manage. I enjoyed my class last night though....just got to love COLORS and creative vibes.......broad smile.

And some motivational music: R.I.O feat. U-Jean - Turn this club around

So, off to continue my day, and not to forget the standard sentence lately: "Let's see whatelse is crossing my way today, I feel like sharing" -> ♥♥♥♥ Lol from the heart and soul.....seeee yaaaa around - 'blinking-one-eye-Anke' :)

PS: Well, my upper legs are still a little in pain....can't believe that this special muscles is not used while biking...but now I know ;) and hopefully by tuesday the legs will be ready to go again, lol....walking steps is still painful....autsch autsch autsch....lol ;)

PS from after lunch: Here another motivational music link - perfect to clean up the messes here, sigh ;)......Sean Paul - She doesn't mind

Do you need some 'inspirational-piling' today? Here you go, lol....


lol....okay, typing error.....hello :)

Bangles - Eternal Flame - yes I AM A WOMAN....so, you guys, out there reading my blog, don't even bother to click this link, it's a girl song, lol - smiles :)

Coldplay - Paradise - just because I heard it a minute ago and I really enjoy that song.....:)

Confusion and clarity...

2012-01-26T10:31:00.002+01:00

...when your waters are troubled by something = confusion ( stone falling into calm water), waiting is an option to let the water settle again = clarity. Which doesn't mean the 'stir-up-creating' is gone but when you are centered again found a distance, don't identify with it right away, and the waters are literally clear again, you can view 'that-stir-up-ceating'-object/feeling/thought' from all angles in a sharper attention, with an open heart and mind. And then decide if there is some action needed or just let it be how it is.
I am still viewing it from all angles......trying to understand, trying to relate, trying to not judge in a certain way. I need more time and I am good to myself giving me that space and be patient. Because any-fast-forced-decision is not a whole one and I know for sure I can't go that way again, half-hearted just to 'keep-a-false-peace', because that is not authentic to me. I guess you can say being authentic is important to me. How about you ? What is your understanding of 'being-authentic' and how important is it to you?

'Sei freundlich zu dir. Dann bist du auch freundlich zu anderen.' - Lama Thubten Yeshe

'Be polite to yourself. Then you are also polite to others.' - Lama Thubten Yeshe

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'Verantwortlich ist man nicht nur fuer das, was man tut, sondern auch fuer das, was man nicht tut.' - Laozi

'You are not just reponsible for what you do, but also for what your are not doing.' -Laozi

So, let's see what else my day is bringing....smiles, Anke :)

PS: Did you know that a lot of 'meaningful' words are starting with a 'con' in the beginning? Like confusion, conceive, confident, condense, confirm, constrict, conflict, conclude, condition, condece, concrete, concise, conducive.......and a whole lot more....Just something I realized last night, lol.....never thought about it, but it's kind of interesting. ;) -> ♥♥♥ A 'curious-me-conclusion' Hahaha another 'con'-word......lol, smiles :)

'Es gibt nichts Schöneres, als geliebt zu werden, geliebt um seiner selbst willen oder vielmehr trotz seiner selbst.'

-Victor Hugo

PS from the afternoon: COFFEE TIME....here a virtual Latte macchiatto (is that how you write that?) for you.....;)

Fatboy Slim - Gangster trippin

BZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......did you here that buzzing sound? Yep! That was me....busy bee coordinating house tasks, kids demands and preparing for class tonight.....bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz SSEEEEEE YAAAAAA! LOL :) -> ♥♥♥♥ Crazy-creative-brain

Can't hear that enough: Coldplay -Charlie Brown

New discovery I just heard: Cool beat......Dione Aura feat.Rock Mafia - Friends

Have a good night!

Don't make me kneel down today......

2012-01-25T10:32:00.002+01:00

Patches of BLUE

.....pain, pain, pain, lol! But that doesn't really matter because: music + dancing + fun + new movement + new challenge = Bliss ->♥♥♥♥♥♥ The happy hormones were produced last night and hearing the birds this morning on our walk was a nice addition to my-feeling-good-inside -> broad smile - oh and not to forget the radio channel SWR 3 is playing all kinds of music from the 90's....songs I haven't heard in a long time :)

Soooooo, so far all good, let's see how the day develops and what else crosses my way I feel like sharing.

Have a great wednesday and here, some of my inside sparkles FOR YOU!!!!! CATCH!!!!!! :))))

D-reams -Things only get better

Culture beat - Inside out

Aerosmith - Crazy

Van Halen - Can't stop lovin' you

Offspring - Pretty fly

Dr. Alban - It's my life

Happinez share on FB:

'Sei achtsam mit dir selbst. Sei achtsam mit anderen.

Erinnere dich daran, dass es manchmal ein wunderbarer Glücksfall sein kann, nicht zu bekommen, was du dir wünschst.

Verbringe jeden Tag eine Zeit lang alleine.

Öffne dich der Veränderung, aber vergiss nicht deine Werte.

Erinnere dich daran, dass Stille manchmal die beste Antwort ist.

Lebe ein gutes ehrenhaftes Leben, denn wenn du älter bist und zurückdenkst, wirst du fähig sein, dich ein zweites Mal daran zu erfreuen.

Beurteile deinen Erfolg danach, was du dafür aufgegeben hast, um ihn zu erringen.

Nähere dich der Liebe mit unaufhörlicher Anstrengung.'

Auszug aus einem Mantra des Dalai Lama

Die Fantastischen Vier - Tag am Meer

PS: No kneeling down and careful 'steps walking'....autsch autsch autsch, lol :)

Gianna Nannini + Eduardo Bennato - Un Estate Italiana

Green Day - Basket case

Wamdue Project - Kind of my castle

Metallica - Turn the page

Echt - Alles wird sich aendern

PS from late afternoon: AHHHHHH -scream- I am glued to the radio....what a fun day to listen music.....the 90's rock! YEAH! -Mischievious smile, heheheheheehehhe- And when you think you can't dance with 'leg-pain'...well it works, lol :) Can't stand still to that music :))))))

DJ Prezioso - Tell me why

Guano Apes - Open your eyes

Passion Fruit - The Rigga Ding Dong

Taxi Sharia - Sackgesicht

PS from the evening: reality go me tonight....things to think about, I guess you can say I am confused....has been a while since I was confused like I feel right now. So no good no bad judgement about it, just that is there - confusion. See you tomorrow.

Fury and the Slaughterhouse - Radio Orchid

Metallica feat. Marianne Faithfull - The memory remains

I feel muscles in my leg I did not know they were there....

2012-01-24T20:32:00.000+01:00

...until tonight, lol. Well, I gave my first ZUMBA class a try and I have to say I LIKE IT, I really LIKE it. Okay, my coordination legs-arms did not quite work out so well, but better than I thought, and hey, I am rusty concerning 'organised dance moves' - lol. So, I am getting there and I think I will continue. My friend and me had a lot of fun! Yeah to my new grounds - moving in a group to cool beats, lot's of hip shaken and fun.....ah.....happy sigh...ahhh.....legs hurt...so much for you-think-you-are-fit, lol. I guess bike riding is not quite the same or is not using THOSE MUSCLES.......- all good though. Looking forward till next week. And it's kind of like old times, when I used to be in a Jazzdance group, some familiar faces tonight, smiles :)

Good night, smiles 'leg-muscles-in-pain-but-happy-Anke' :)

Thank you to my friend, for asking me, if I would like to come :)))))))

'Ice-wheeling' or ice skating on four wheels

2012-01-24T08:59:00.001+01:00

....this morning there was a really thin, tricky layer of ice on the road. It was like driving on raw eggs, never know when the car is going to swing off in an uncontrollable direction. So 'no puhsing the pedal to the metal' this morning, instead it was full concentration. We made it without danerous situations but sometimes you just can shake your head how other people drive, instead of keeping a safe distance they 'hang on your behind'. But maybe those people are not even aware of the road condition, until it's too late, who knows.....so, off to start my day, a little tired but okay.

Have a good tuesday!

See you around, smiles, Anke :)

PS: Sorry if there are spelling mistakes in here, I corrected already some, lol, maybe I can feel that sun storm that is hitting the earth some time from today on...maybe that's why my kids didn't want to go to sleep and I didn't sleep that good....wonder if that has an effect on humans as well, even they say we can't feel it, but why shouldn't you be able to feel it somehow, especially when it's such a powerful magnetic energy???? Yeah, yeah, I know my curious me, lol :))))) Especially some scientist ( can't remember his name) tried to influence the brain with a magnetic field and found out that your 'brain's behaviour can be changed and 'normal' people (with no special creative drawing skill) are more creative and draw better.....so do you feel a little different than on other days? That might be the sun storm, lol !!!! :)))) So, don't be so hard on yourself, if your 'personal computer' alias brain is behaving weird today or until the sun storm is over - smiles - ;) And who knows, maybe you will be super creative the next days........

Train - Drive by

Train- Hey soul sister

Train- Drops of Jupiter (live) just today it's drops of sun....lol :)

And a quote I just discovered from a FB share (in german):

'Das Paradox unserer Zeit

Wir haben hohe Gebäude, aber eine niedrige Toleranz, breite Autobahnen, aber enge Ansichten. Wir verbrauchen mehr, aber haben weniger, machen mehr Einkäufe, aber haben weniger Freude. Wir haben größere Häuser, aber kleinere Familien, mehr Bequemlichkeit, aber weniger Zeit, mehr Ausbildung, aber weniger Vernunft, mehr Kenntnisse, aber weniger Hausverstand, mehr Experten, aber auch mehr Probleme, mehr Medizin, aber weniger Gesundheit.

Wir rauchen zu stark, wir trinken zu viel, wir geben verantwortungslos viel aus; wir lachen zu wenig, fahren zu schnell, regen uns zu schnell auf, gehen zu spät schlafen, stehen zu müde auf; wir lesen zu wenig, sehen zu viel fern, beten zu selten.

Wir haben unseren Besitz vervielfacht, aber unsere Werte reduziert. Wir sprechen zu viel, wir lieben zu selten und wir hassen zu oft.

Wir wissen, wie man seinen Lebensunterhalt verdient, aber nicht mehr, wie man lebt.

Wir haben dem Leben Jahre hinzugefügt, aber nicht den Jahren Leben. Wir kommen zum Mond, aber nicht mehr an die Tür des Nachbarn. Wir haben den Weltraum erobert, aber nicht den Raum in uns. Wir machen größere Dinge, aber keine Besseren.

Wir haben die Luft gereinigt, aber die Seelen verschmutzt. Wir können Atome spalten, aber nicht unsere Vorurteile.

Wir schreiben mehr, aber wissen weniger, wir planen mehr, aber erreichen weniger. Wir haben gelernt schnell zu sein, aber wir können nicht warten. Wir machen neue Computer, die mehr Informationen speichern und eine Unmenge Kopien produzieren, aber wir verkehren weniger miteinander.

Es ist die Zeit des schnellen Essens und der schlechten Verdauung, der großen Männer und der kleinkarierten Seelen, der leichten Profite und der schwierigen Beziehungen.

Es ist die Zeit des größeren Familieneinkommens und der Scheidungen, der schöneren Häuser und des zerstörten Zuhause.

Es ist die Zeit der schnellen Reisen, der Wegwerfwindeln und der Wegwerfmoral, der Beziehungen für eine Nacht und des Übergewichts.

Es ist die Zeit der Pillen, die alles können: sie erregen uns, sie beruhigen uns, sie töten uns.

Es ist die Zeit, in der es wichtiger ist, etwas im Schaufenster zu haben, statt im Laden, wo moderne Technik einen Text wie diesen in Windeseile in die ganze Welt tragen kann, und wo sie die Wahl haben: das Leben ändern - oder den Text löschen.

Vergesst nicht, mehr Zeit denen zu schenken, die Ihr liebt, weil sie nicht immer mit Euch sein werden. Sagt ein gutes Wort denen, die Euch jetzt voll Begeisterung von unten her anschauen, weil diese kleinen Geschöpfe bald erwachsen werden und nicht mehr bei Euch sein werden. Schenkt dem Menschen neben Euch eine innige Umarmung, denn sie ist der einzige Schatz, der von Eurem Herzen kommt und Euch nichts kostet. Sagt dem geliebten Menschen: „Ich liebe Dich" und meint es auch so. Ein Kuss und eine Umarmung, die von Herzen kommen, können alles Böse wiedergutmachen. Geht Hand in Hand und schätzt die Augenblicke, wo Ihr zusammen seid, denn eines Tages wird dieser Mensch nicht mehr neben Euch sein.

Findet Zeit Euch zu lieben, findet Zeit miteinander zu sprechen. Findet Zeit, alles was Ihr zu sagen habt miteinander zu teilen, denn das Leben wird nicht gemessen an der Anzahl der Atemzüge, sondern an der Anzahl der Augenblicke, die uns des Atems berauben.'
(Ende Zitat)

Diesen Text schrieb George Carlin, ein US-Schauspieler und Komiker anlässlich des Todes seiner Frau.

PS: All ready for tonight - new sports shoes- for inside, since my outside ones look like mud balls, lol....new grounds, let's see how fast my brain can adapt to new movements or if it will freeze bad into total confusion, because when my movements will be like I type today ( lot's of mistakes and missing words), it's going to be funny....... lol.....-broad grin- more tomorrow ;)

So, when was the last time you tried something new?

Enough....

2012-01-23T20:35:00.003+01:00

...rules putting down and being strict, enough loudness, sibling fights, enough ' Mama's for today, enough things which need to be done, enough explaining....sometimes things are just enough or more then enough and especially on those nights when you would/could need some calm, your kids decide NOT to fall asleep easy BUT I am hungry and need to take care of myself NOW. So off to give me a 'music-headphone-treatment' and some FOOD!

'Trying-to-recharge-from-enough-Anke'

Have a good night and hopefully a relaxed evening.

Some flowers for you and on a mission....

2012-01-23T10:40:00.001+01:00

Some fresh green on the dinning room table.....feels good :) Counting days till spring, lol.
Concerning the rest, I am on a mission. I finally found the motivation to start with my carneval costume. I am going as an 'amazone - woman fighter' but not like that Lara Croft kind, it's going to be a mix between the avatar style and a fighter woman. So yep, be aware when you cross me this 'Fasching', I might hiss -lol. Let's see how it turns out, this year I am alone creating, my sparkling-idea-companion from last year is too busy right now. I have rough ideas how it should look like, some preparations are made already, last night, now I have to work out the details or better, they work out themselves while putting it together - broad grin-

Well that's all for this morning, see you around. Enjoy the music link, cool beat......lallaaaaalllla dancing through the rooms, lol.

Smiles, Anke :)

Sean Paul - She doesn't mind

Yelawolf feat. Kid Rock - Let's roll

Mary J. Blige feat. Drake - Mr. Wrong

PS from the afternoon break: I am just browsing through new art materials....all I can say is: AAAAAHHHHHHH! To much cool-fun-exciting-new-stuff BUT the look at the price, gets you down to earth super FAST! Bummer....May, May, May....4 more month for hopefully the right tools to get going to the next level with my Studio ;)

Finding beauty......

2012-01-22T12:08:00.000+01:00

...recharging, being movement, felt nice....have a great sunday with lot's of happy and cheery vibes around you!

Smiles, Anke :)

"Intelligence is a natural phenomenon — just as breathing is, just as seeing is. Intelligence is the inner seeing; it is intuitive. It has nothing to do with the intellect, remember."
-Osho

'Wenn man alles, was einem begegnet, als Moeglichkeit zu inneren Wachstum ansieht, gewinnt man innere Staerke.'

- Milarepa

From crazy wild, restless towards mellow, soft and clear.....

2012-01-22T10:10:00.000+01:00

'Ruhe bringt Gleichgewicht und Leichtigkeit. Gleichgewicht und Leichtigkeit bringen inneren Frieden und Gelassenheit.' - Tschuang-Tse

'Quietness brings balance and lightness. Balance and lightness bring inner peace and serenity.' -Tschuang-Tse

The photo doesn't do justice - the colors are light and refreshing in original.

.....the sparks were flying last night.....after 'decluttering' with the first collage which has the title 'neutral phase' (see earlier post about 'neutral-phase') with lot's of, lot's of layers, the second creating time was pure, clear and all mellow. I feel refreshed and lighter inside. Letting go feels good, it doesn't matter in which way you 'let go'. So, maybe some more art time today, let's see. Going with the flow......smiles, Anke :)

PS from the afternoon: Lampshade no. 2 is done. Now I have to find some other things to alter/create/color-up, lol! 'Crazy-color-girl-Anke' :)

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

2012-01-21T12:22:00.001+01:00

...yep that's what that means. I took a ride against the wind and rain but you know what, I did not care. Going for a two-wheel-freedom-ride felt AWESOME. So 'packed-like-a-snow-woman-Anke' was enjoying to feel the moving up and down hill again. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaa, cow-girl on wheels, next time I take my lasso, maybe there is something worth hunting, lol!!!! But on second thought, too stressful, so just riding with the wind ;) . Crazy creative brain, lol.

Okay off to go with the flow......see you, maybe interactive blogging.......... :)

Smiles, Anke :)

"Wer durch das torlose Tor der Gegenwartgeht, kommt ans Ende seiner Suche. Vielleicht hat man zunächst auf vieleverschiedene Weisen nach Erleuchtung gesucht oder wollte etwas Besonderes sein.Die Einkehr in die eigenen Mitte lässt einen erkennen, dass man bereits am Zielist. Man selbst ist der Ort, der einzige Ort, an dem Geduld, Frieden, Offenheitund Mitgefühl geübt werden können."

Jack Kornfield

'Each friend represents a world inus, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meetingthat a new world is born.'
Anaïs Nin

Mumford and Sons - Sigh no more

Mumford and Sons - After the storm

Mumford and Sons - Lover of the light

Mumford and Sons - Below my feet

Mumford and Sons - Whispers in the dark

Here is the link to their webpage - Mumford and Sons
and some more at myspace to listen to: Mumford and Sons on myspace

'Sparkling-pirates-eyes-enjoying-music-Anke' :))))

PS from late afternoon - after island time :
I finally found the time to create a new collage, title developed as 'neutral-phase', photos tomorrow, all I say is crazy wild, restless, full of energy, and lot's-of-lot's-of layers.

PS from later later: The sparks are flowing.....yeah! Results tomorrow :))))) From crazy wild towards mellow, pure, sparkling calm.....ahhh that felt great. And I had 'gaining' company in my Studio tonight. From one to two little monkeys ;)

May the 'bulb' relight again...

2012-01-20T20:08:00.003+01:00

The new lampshade - finally done!

...I mean the creativity sparkle bulb....the kids class was a start. Now I have to make time to let the 'sparks' fly onto the canvas, lol...... for some reason finding time is a challenge this week...bummer. Oh well, when the time is ripe the time will be ripe for some island time : )

'Creativity is the fragnance of individual freedom. ' Osho, Creativity

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'Du kannst die Wellen nicht anhalten, aber du kannst lernen zu surfen.' - Joseph Goldstein

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'You can't stop the waves, but you can learn how to surf.' - Joseph Goldstein

Happy relaxed friday night, smiles, Anke :))))

;)

2012-01-20T07:45:00.004+01:00

" Alle spirituellen Methoden sind nur Mittel, um Gewahrsein, Herzenswaerme und Mitgefuehl auf dem Weg zu entwicklen. Das ist alles." - Jack Kornfield

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"All spiritual methods are only ways, to develop awareness, heart warming and compassion. That's it." - Jack Kornfield

Have a great weekend start, smiles, Anke :)

And some photos from our morning walk - blue sky and golden light - SMILE :)

PS: By the way, how is your integration from your enjoyings doing ?

Let's see what else comes across my day, I want to share, but first off to continue with my everyday duties and preparing for class.

" Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it! Boldness has genius, power and magic in it." - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

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" You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover is yourself." - Alan Alda

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" Inspiration is everywhere: dreams, a glimpse of a stranger's face, memories. And it's all driven by a fascination with what makes us tick - the conflict of goodness and weakness that's in every one of us. The human condition. That's my wellspring." - Mary McGarry Morris

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Nine Days - Absolutely (Story of a girl)

PPS: Okay my creative brain is this week on break- time to get some new inspiration later, but first I am looking forward to see what the kids will come up with - it is always so special to be there and expierence how they just 'splash' their ideas onto paper :)))) Lot's of 'throwing-paint-on-paper' lately- like Pollock ;)
Maybe see you later in real time blogging, ha!

'Idea-bulbs-are-on-break-Anke' LOL ;)

Nathan Matt - Come on get higher

Being soft....giving space....open hearted....open minded....

2012-01-19T09:42:00.000+01:00

'The powerless defeats the hard, the weak triumphs over the vigorous.' - Tao Te King

So, what does softness mean to you? Does it have a positive or negative meaning? For me it's all the way positive, and it's a new expierence I made the last couple of days. Softness gives space, space to fill without any pressure, it makes you relaxed inside, it deepens the trust in life, deepens the trust in the way, you are going because it feels good, a way to a better healthier living. Being soft means you can pull yourself back, don't need to be on top of everything, riding the wave, it's kind of like pulling yourself all the way back and just let things happen on their own, because you know who you are, what you need, that you can take care of yourself. And whatever is coming, you find ways to find time to recharge, to pull yourself back and take deep breaths.
And out of this softness you are all the way open hearted, open minded, you don't have any urge to fight, because you know there is not really a right or wrong, just a fullfilled or unfullfilled living and it's always up to you, if you can give yourself what you need or not. So, softness is 'strong', 'storms' ( a metaphor ) around you can't hit you, they loose their power getting in touch with the softness around you. I guess you can imagine being a very soft cotton ball, in which the stormy winds get caught and loose the power, because on a smooth surface the wind would just pick up, no real inner resistance. (I am not trying to base this on scientific physical accuracy).
Being soft also means there is a certain resistance, a natural resistance that is just there. No need to build up a protection wall around you (smooth surface), because you know your limits, you know yourself. I guess you can say that natural inner resistance is a mix out of taking responsibility for yourself 100%, tolerance for yourself and others, accepting your own limits, respecting yourself and other individuals and giving space to you and other individuals who are around you, emphatizing, trying to understand, relate, not judging right away.
You might ask now, well, so now you let yourself throw around by others how they want? No- with this natural resistance, you are so calm inside that the storm can try to damage you, but will realize really fast, there is no surface to attack, there is no spot who is injured, hurt and there won't be any satisfied 'victory' - the revenge won't work. And all power is lost in the storm because that lost 'revenge-victory' is even more painful. So either the 'storm' is finding a way through pain to find its own natural inner resistance or is finding another 'storm-victim'.

'I got lost in the night, without the light of your eyelids, and when the night surrounded me I was born again: I was the owner of my own darkness.' -Pablo Neruda

Okay I don't know if that makes sense to you at all, it does to me.....and maybe it's just something again, you have to expierence by yourself. So like I said I am not trying to prove something scientific, this is just my expierence I am sharing here.

SO, can you be soft?

Smiles, Anke :)

' Ein jedes Ding muss Zeit rum Reifen haben.' - William Shakespeare

'Everything, needs time to ripen.' - William Shakespeare

Happinez share on FB:

'Was ist ein Kind?

Es ist Liebe,
die Gestalt angenommen hat.
Es ist Glück,
für das es keine Worte gibt.
Es ist eine kleine Hand,
die Dich zurückführt in eine Welt,
die Du schon vergessen hast.
Schön dass Du da bist,
und unser Leben reicher machst!
Kinder sind Augen,
die sehen,
wofür wir längst schon blind sind.
Kinder sind Ohren,
die hören,
wofür wir längst schon taub sind.
Kinder sind Seelen,
die spüren,
wofür wir längst schon stumpf sind.
Kinder sind Spiegel,
die zeigen,
was wir gerne verbergen.'

Altes chinesisches Sprichwort

Daniel Cirera - Roadtrippin

Daniel Cirera - Won't bite .....the right music for a rainy, stormy day......

DEAR nature - THANK YOU!

2012-01-18T13:15:00.002+01:00

DEAR nature - THANK YOU:
-for your constant inspiration
- amazing astonishing beauty - all seasons
- your calming effect
- your magic you reveal for free
- your being there for me whenever I need some downshifting
- thank you for letting me capture your beauty - and to share here on my blog is my THANK YOU for the amazing natural life around us !

Just felt like sharing this today :)

So the pirate ship is under pirate flag again, it took a trip somewhere the last weekend withouth the pirates, lol. So the pirates were enjoying 'swimming' with pirates music today - broad-mischievious-sparkling-pirates-eyes-smile - EY!

Oh, before I forget, when was the last time your skin got goosebumps just listening to music?

Mads Langer - You're not alone

So maybe some Collage time tonight - has been a while since the last......but NO time - bummer....might as well spend some time in the Studio, since bike ride is not an option today, too cold. I don't want icicl-ing on me while bycicling - LOL funny rhyme -> remark from the evening, so much for plans....I am too unmotivated to go to the Studio, I think my creative brain is on rest tonight, oh well, than I give it the rest - well deserved- it was already super productive this year, lol ;)

Off to continue my day, smiles, Anke :)

PS from the afternoon: I am on break (short one before 4 laundry baskets wanted to be folded)
and here is so some discoveries I just made:

'Manche Menschen wissen nicht, wie wichtig es ist, dass sie da sind.
Manche Menschen wissen nicht, wie gut es ist, sie zu sehen.
Manche Menschen wissen nicht, wie tröstlich ihr gütiges Lächeln wirkt.
Manche Menschen wissen nicht, wie wohltuend ihre Nähe ist.
Manche Menschen wissen nicht, wie viel ärmer wir ohne sie wären.
Manche Menschen wissen nicht, dass sie ein Geschenk des Himmels sind.
Sie wüssten es, würden wir es ihnen sagen.'

Clemens Kunze

"When you are sharing your joy, you don´t create a prison for anybody —
you simply give. You don´t even expect gratitude or thankfulness,
because you are giving, not to get anything, not even gratitude.
You are giving because you are so full, you have to give." Osho

What is meditation? Meditation is freedom

Shutter Sister post for today - Reminder

PS: NO 'after-lunch-out-of-energy-hole' today, due to spending some time outside - but I will have my COFFEE ANYWAY -LOL :)

Okay- I want to get paid from now on....lol - How much is a homemaker worth? Thanks to a share on FB......:)

Break over ! - I am going to tackle the MESS now and the laundry baskets.....SEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUU:) Or like the football players say 'Hou!' - or was that a military shout????? LOL

Growing or stuck?

2012-01-17T13:25:00.002+01:00

Today's topic is for me, growing or stuck. Actually I wanted to write about bringing lightness into your life, but this kind of involves the following process: With growing I don't mean your money or belongings, I mean the inner growing, the growing, which life is pushing you to, is kind of challenging you to grow inside, to go through a process emotionally, learn new ways/skills to deal with life, to become a whole person. And I just realized that every age has it's challenges. I am in my early 30's and honestly I wouldn't like to go back in age. I totally love being in my 30's. It's different, it came with a certain developement step ( I guess when you took it, lol), and for some reason some in my age around me, are in the same process. Life becomes a different meaning, partly by bad and good expieriences, you made so far. But one thing is kind of the same for all, you know better what you want from your life, you can appreciate little things more, you 'grew' more mature inside and I don't mean the serious-not-having-no-fun-anymore-mature. I mean the mature, that you know who you are, that you know you can take challenges and that you will find a way to deal with them, that you can let go, you sort out what does not feel good in your life and when you can't sort it out, you try to change it in a better direction. That you can create your life, no matter what, there are always ways to go. So, YES I DO LOVE BEING in my 30's. I know for sure I am not stuck - anymore- and I give my best to listen to myself to not get 'stuck' again. Life is too beautiful, it's all about the focus, you can nuture your good parts or the evil parts. I know that I don't try to hold onto bad/old habbits anymore, because I am scared of the new. I agree the NEW is a challenge for your emotions, it's everytime a challenge (see earlier post about the 'neutral-state') but like I said 'growing inside' is priceless ! And 'moving' in your life feels like freedom! Like the saying ' NO RISK - NO FUN '. So concerning lightness, when you know what you need, what you can change, that you can integrate enjoyments into your life, your life becomes lighter. It's being responsible for yourself, taking care of yourself. Be good to yourself.

And for the critiques out there....this may sound like what I posted before, but it is quite a difference in my topic today. And that life is beautiful you can't repeat enough.LOL. I have a fire burning inside of me and it's wild (especially - since it was almost out not too long ago) -LOL- so why not share some of my energy/experiences on my inner adventure with you here.....maybe I can tickle you to find the way to 'fullfilled living' - being you- all the way- kind of revaluing life and give it a good meaning, show you, that life can have a whole meaning, lol. I guess you can call me, a follower, of the 'Downshifting' motion that is probably for some a known term. Just in my way ;)

So, are you 'growing' or are you 'stuck' ?

Smiles, Anke :)

This is such a beautiful I discovered today on the FB page of Happinez magazine, unfortunately in german but I will share it anyway:

'Jeder Mensch ist ein Künstler
Lass dich fallen.
Lerne Schnecken zu beobachten.
Pflanze unmögliche Gärten.
Lade jemand Gefährlichen zum Tee ein.
Mache kleine Zeichen, die “Ja” sagen
und verteile sie überall in deinem Haus.
Werde ein Freund von Freiheit und Unsicherheit.
Freue dich auf Träume.
Weine bei Kinofilmen.
Schaukel so hoch du kannst mit einer Schaukel bei Mondlicht.
Pflege verschiedene Stimmungen.
Verweigere “verantwortlich” zu sein. Tu es aus Liebe.
Mach viele Nickerchen.
Gib Geld weiter. Tu es jetzt. Das Geld wird folgen.
Glaube an Zauberei.
Lache viel.
Bade im Mondlicht.
Träume wilde, phantasievolle Träume.
Zeichne auf die Wände.
Lies jeden Tag.
Stell dir vor, du wärst verzaubert.
Kichere mit Kindern.
Höre alten Leuten zu.
Öffne dich, tauche ein, sei frei.
Segne dich selbst.
Lass die Angst fallen.
Spiele mit allem.
Unterhalte das Kind in dir.
Du bist unschuldig.
Baue eine Burg aus Decken.
Werde nass.
Umarme Bäume.
Schreibe Liebesbriefe.'

Joseph Beuys

Brooks Meredith - Bitch

Rea Garvey - Color me in ( click on that link)

PS from later: Dear 'after-lunch-out-of-energy-hole' no time for you today....so maybe postphoning till tomorrow, but my coffee I will have anyway lol - trying to catch a breath in my BUSY afternoon - TODAY.....okay off to continue, lol ;)

Icy wonderland and in bad need of a sound absorber ;)

2012-01-16T13:04:00.004+01:00

But first - ENJOY- a share from my heart, some ICY photos :) ->♥♥♥♥♥

Now to the rest, somebody has a sound absorber? Lol - I am in bad need of one today! Three screaming kids is LOUD. But I guess that is normal when you have that many ;) Because sometimes you just have to make yourself heard, lol.And with a wildfire around 2 years it's not always easy ;)

So, today is another beautiful sun-drenched day and that feels soooooooooooooooooooo amazingly good, it lets your soul fly like a kite, having fun being in the air and enjoying the view ;) (literally).

Since I don't have anything 'smart' (humorous meant) to share today, I will see whatelse will fill my day and maybe I find something worth sharing here.

Off to get the wild bunch somehow UNDER CONTROL...in a good-caring-loving-way ;)

Smiles, Anke :)

PS from early afternoon: Dear 'after-lunch-out-of-energy-hole' I would love a hammock, some warm breeze and warm temperature - NOW ! -> I know, I am daydreaming again....so off to make myself a COFFEE......because matchsticks and eye-glasses don't work - LOL :))))

PS fom after the 'lunch-out-of-energy-hole' (the coffee did its job!): Just something that went through my head after reading some interesting, pure honest, humorous article from Birte Mueller, in the magazine alverde +a tempo. She is just so refreshing honest and it made my brain thinking again.
I guess you can call this here the 'smart' part of this post, lol, anyway I just thought, that the 'creative' types might be a little crazy in their thinking process but having ideas simmering in your back works awesome......maybe that is the advantage of being a 'little-crazy-creative-wired' in your brain, because you can let ideas, things simmer in your back of your brain and maybe some time during your everyday you have an "INSIGHT" that kind of was the right one you were looking for. You kind of let your brain puzzle but without your direct thinking on it ;)

So, a hooray to the 'crazy, sparkling, creative' brains out there!

-BROAD-sparkling-pirates-eyes-SMILE-

Being responsible for your own life....

2012-01-15T22:50:00.001+01:00

'The way to the destination starts on that day, on which you take 100 % responsibility for your actions.'

-Dante Alighieri

Some 'tickle-your-inner feeling' quote for you tonight, so do you take 100 % responsibility?

Smiles, Anke :)

Boomtown Rats - I don't like mondays.......lallaaalllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, just came to my mind that song, lol :)

ICY Morning, housework and some interesting facts....

2012-01-15T10:31:00.000+01:00

Good morning ! Busy me is busy today, well when you neglect your 'house-duties' for pretty much two whole days, you get bit in the behind....lol....but all taken care off already. LOL.
So we started today wit SUN - bright - light- blue sky but ICY ICY ICY cold. The clear air feels kind of nice though. I hope this blue sky stays all day like yesterday, to recharge with lot's of light.....:)

Other than my house-duties I was reading some interesting facts again, last night, in the magazine Psychologie heute compact. It was an article about 'Saying farewell' of things you loose, things that change in life -sudden or slowly- and how to deal with them. Quite interesting but all I say, repressing is not working....eventually it will find its way out, if you believe that or not. I am a sensitive person, and when I start to repress, it will get me, kind of, somehow sometime, my body is refusing to hide it. lol
So, like I said repressing won't work, but how to deal with it? I guess everybody has to find their own way, but there are certain stages and the one called 'neutral' was getting my attention, because after the article it's not really neutral (like no feelings, easy going), it's kind of like a storm of feelings hitting you, you are not like before and you are not quite 'new', you are confused, disorientated, feel akward, strange inside - extra stress on top of stress- but it's all worth trying to accept as it is and let your brain get used to the 'NEW-not-quite-yet-all-the-way-used-to'. I have been through this stage quite some time the last year and already in the new year, now I know even more, that next time I will be in one of those 'neutral-stages', I just stick it out, because it's so worth it! Life is a constant change and you never know when old habbits change in a split second. I guess you can call that ability to deal with 'changes/throwing-you-out-of-your-tracks' - a skill to live your life in fullness. Because when you know how to accept your pain, and like the article said, can hold yourself back from trying to 'accelerate-the-process-you-have-to-go-through-in-all-its-stages' or try to ' deny- all', you have very good chances to get to the next stage to find time for yourself, being alone somewhere, put yourself in a 'safe' zone to recharge, think about what you really want, what you need right now, get connected to your inside and listening to it without any judgement. And maybe some day something/somebody will be there and showing/giving you a glimpse to the way back to the light! And slowly something new is growing inside of you.....something really special that makes you kind of proud that you made it and that you learned a new skill for life! Because once learned, you know next time! You can be more patient, you probably give yourself more time to go through those stages and will be not irritated at all. Life is a constant flow - trying to accelerate does not work - I made my expierence, lol......

Okay, some kind of insight combined with what I just read and experienced on my own. Yeah yeah my curious me.....lol....all good though :)))))

So enjoy your SUNDAY !

Smiles, Anke :))))

Laith Al-Deen - Keine wie du

Adele - Turning tables

A share from a fb friend:

'Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless - like water. Now you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup, you put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle, you put it in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash. Be water, my friend.'
-Bruce Lee

SUN-DRENCHED :))))))))))

And a room filled with music - Mozart for kids - an out of ordinary sunday ;)

And some - playing around with words- those are the headlines I cut out earlier for my future collages and I just got the idea to arrange them on the table- yeah I know crazy creative brain, lol. It was fun though -smile-

PS from later: Two little monkey are sleeping - ahhhh.....silence.....have a great evening :)

Going with the flow.....

2012-01-14T14:47:00.003+01:00

have been meeting with great company for breakfast, being-enjoying-laughing, being utterly housework-lazy, being me, being whatever I want to do, going with the flow.....feels AWESOME - laughing.......utterly filling the well......creating my day......letting myself go......feels very special because that state is really rare, lol.....so I enjoy it even more.

So, how is your saturday?

'Broad-enjoying-to-laugh'-Anke :)

PS: If you ever need a good piler - here I AM - lol- a photo to make you smile...yes! without piles life is boring, especially - pay attention of the balancing job on this 'my-pile' right here, lol! :))) So do you pile?

Culcha Candela - Partybus live.....brumm brumm.......lol ;)

Culcha Candela - Schoene Neue Welt

Culcha Candela - Eiskalt

Culcha Candela - Monsta

yeah...cool beat......let's dance......:))))

NATURE - NATURE and more NATURE......sighhh.......

2012-01-13T15:57:00.002+01:00

....felt awesome....a very long walk with great company! My four legged friend and my dear camera - broad smile- FREEEDDDOOOMMMM WALK - YEAH! Can't a wait for SPRING !!!! That looks like some more SOLITUDE time with my friend....at least I am well protected going cross-country, lol......I am sure he would protect me - one eye blinking ;) So enjoy the photos, since the landscape is kind of dull, not that many colorful shots - smiles- Relaxed.....

BALANCED-ANKE :))))))
PS: Yes I like the variety of ways you can choose in my area.....and pretty much all with a view -
'soul-flying-ways-spreading-wings-pirate-sparkle-pirate-eyes'

Giving space - recharging - letting be (again-yes!)

2012-01-13T07:25:00.000+01:00

First of all, the way should be clear this weekend - 'hell on wheels' is probably not going for a 'freedom' ride.....about 90%, so that way is safe! (10 % is an open option) That was an insider, I just don't want to cause anymore pain and misunderstandings. How can you be mad with someone who opened the door back to the light? But I guess you first will maybe understand when you have been there. So I am out of the way this weekend, giving space - freedom. Like I mentioned before I am not trying to possess anything/anybody, it's all about sharing my inner happiness/energy when I have, and sometimes I don't have it overflowing, like today, but I will fill my well this weekend, in my way, an enjoying way. I know how struggle feels inside of yourself, it's not fun, it's not easy in this cruel world, because when you show heart, you are vulnerable, but for me, I can distinguish who is capable of seeing other value than materialistic thinking and with whom I can trust my full heart and/or talk about things which trouble me. It helped me a lot in my struggle with darkness or light....everybody deals different with the questions they raise inside, I tried a couple ways, be direct, try to find the answers myself, listen to others expierences and still sometimes you just don't get the answer to know and that is okay. I can't get every question answered, even my curious me inside would like to. Because that is the intrinsic desire which kids still have, to find 'knowing' - how things work, and why things work like they work/happen.

Pink - Bridge of light

So off to enjoy my weekend and filling my well, and here some shares from more favorite quotes:

Take care, maybe interactive posting, maybe not:

'Mancher Krieger des Lichts richtet sein Augenmerk auf die kleinen Wunderdes Alltags.
Er ist fähig, das Schöne zu sehen, weil er dieSchönheit in sich trägt, denn die Welt ist ein Spiegel und wirft einem jedenMenschen das Bild seines eigenen Gesichts zurück.
Wenn er sich auch seiner Fehler und Grenzen bewußt ist,so tut der Krieger doch alles, um in Krisenzeiten seine gute Laune nicht zuverlieren.
Letztlich bemüht sich die Welt, ihm zu helfen, auchwenn alles um ihn herum das Gegenteil zu beweisen scheint.'

Paulo Coelho

Bist du nicht mehr in der Lage, etwas mit deinemLeben anzufangen, erfolgt eine Veränderung über die Erkenntnis, dass duliebenswert bist. Wenn das jemand über dich denkt, kannst du es zunächst nichtglauben. Nach und nach lernst du jedoch, ebenfalls zu lieben - und das ist dieEssenz des Menschseins

Bob Geldof

Humor is the sunshine of the mind. (Edward G.Bulwer-Lytton)

Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in theheart. ~KahlilGibran

“Everyperson has the power to make others happy.
Some do it simply by entering a room --
others by leaving the room.
Some individuals leave trails of gloom;
others, trails of joy.
Some leave trails of hate and bitterness;
others, trails of love and harmony.
Some leave trails of cynicism and pessimism;
others trails of faith and optimism.
Some leave trails of criticism and resignation;
others trails of gratitude and hope.
What kind of trails do you leave?”
- William Arthur Ward

'Live your life with anappreciation of coincidences and you connect with the field of infinatepossibilities. '
-Deepak Chopra

‚ The intelligent person cannotbe obedient; the obedient person has to lose some of his intelligence. Intelligencecan say yes only when it feels deep agreement with you.’

- Osho

Smiles, Anke :) ( sorry for the poor layout with the quotes, but there was a struggle to get it arranged and I just left it like it was good enough - smiles-)

Metallica - Nothing else matters

Michel Telo - Ai Se Eu Te Pego

" Es ist nicht einfach, die Frauen zu verstehen. Aber es lohnt sich.' - Andre Maurois -> lol ♥♥♥♥

Green Day - 21 guns

Just discovered:

'Stell dir vor, dass dich jemand mehr liebt, als du je zuvor geliebt worden bist. Man liebt dich stärker noch als deine Mutter dich als Kind geliebt hat, mehr als dein Vater dich je liebte, dein Kind oder dein dich liebender Partner. Diese Liebe will nichts von dir, ist nicht auf persönliche Befriedigung aus und will nichts mehr, als dass du völlig erfüllt bist, deshalb, weil es dich gibt.'

-Ram Dass, be love now

Soll es ja geben, lol.....;)

Showing soul.....

2012-01-12T06:50:00.004+01:00

Have a great thursday - smiles, Anke :)

And a wish for the wind.(important) Next time please no disturbance on my freedom ride......out of my way!

Charlie Brown - Coldplay

PS: My light is well protected! -YES!- I made it!!!! :)))))))) Thank you challenges!

Just got to love live music and Coldplay, I DO LOVE MUSIC -> ♥♥♥♥♥
Yellow - Coldplay
In my place - Coldplay
Fix you - Coldplay
The hardest part - Coldplay

Ahhhh and a new discovery today- I just heard.....lalaalllaaa
Simple Plan - Untitled sounds like good 'give me horsepower and soundsystem' music, lol
And some quotes:

'Ohne Erwartungen keine Verletzungen.'

Dr. Chuck Spezzano

'No expectations no infringements.'

Dr. Chuch Spezzano

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'Around us, life bursts with miracles--a glass of water, a ray of sunshine, a leaf, a caterpillar, a flower, laughter, raindrops. If you live in awareness, it is easy to see miracles everywhere. Each human being is a multiplicity of miracles. Eyes that see thousands of colors, shapes, and forms; ears that hear a bee flying or a thunderclap; a brain that ponders a speck of dust as easily as the entire cosmos; a heart that beats in rhythm with the heartbeat of all beings. When we are tired and feel discouraged by life's daily struggles, we may not notice these miracles, but they are always there.'

-Thich Nhat Hahn

Sparkle sparkle creative ideas - ha!

2012-01-11T20:46:00.003+01:00

Dear weird concidences.....the ideas are still sparkling and next time you cross my way, be careful I might hiss at you (like the women in Avatar) because my inner fighter just got activiated - lol- HUMOR- but serious be aware my fighting tendency is on alert, this does not make sense!.......this just tickled my humor and my ideas even more - SO LAUGH - common!!!! Don't be soooo serious!!!!!!!! Laughing feels so good, than just laugh about me...that works as well :)))))))))

'I am a little green cactus. Be aware I will do poke you! LOL -> ♥♥♥ But with a big heart and a happy soul :)

And this song is just popping into my head, fits so perfect to my drawing....Ein kleiner gruener Kaktus

Common...take the serious out of all this!!!!! COMMMMMOOONNNNNN!

So, a humorous post for tonight, from a 'hissing-Anke' :)

PS: While watching a tank show, they mentioned the comment ' hell on wheels' - yep, that's I am for some people I am sure, lol!!!! Crazy creative brain..... well, my husband agreed with me...I am - LOL!

Finding balance, letting go, letting be....

2012-01-11T09:37:00.001+01:00

'Wen du etwas loslaesst, bist du einwenig gluecklich. Wenn du viel loslaesst, bist du viel gluecklicher. Wenn duganz loslaesst, bist du frei.'

– Ajahn Chah

'When you let go of something, you are a little happy. When you let go of a lot, you are more happy. When you let go all the way, you are free.'

-Ajahn Chah

Exercising letting go and patience - and I have to say I am astonished about myself how calm I am.....makes me smile...I guess I am on track to learn more patience, more silence, balancing whatever life is offering, with it's ups and downs. I can take care of myself emotionally and that feels very good. That feels like FREEEEDDDOOOOOMMMMM - lol-.

How about you, do you know how to balance between action and calming down, how to deal with things/events/challenges, do you know how to balance and put a distance in between you and the outside world? Which is kind of letting go, letting be - putting a distance between you and the world. -> share from my heart ♥♥♥

So, off to continue my day, smiles, Anke :)

Collage will be up later, the natural light is still too less to take a good photo.....;) -> Collage is up, but the light was not better...anyway see earlier post -smile-

'Loslassen bedeutet, dass wir dieVerbindung mit dem, was uns festhaelt, abbrechen. Es ist nicht die Situationoder die Person selbst, die uns festhaelt – auch wenn wir das oft denken-,sondern unsere eigene Verbundenheit damit.'

– Patty Harpenau

' Letting go means, that we drop the affinity, that clings to us. It is not the situation or the person itself, which is clinging to us - even we often think that - but it's our own affinity with it.'

-Patty Harpenau

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'Lolassen bedeutet Abschied nehmen – vomvertrauten Blick und von bestimmten Denkmustern.'

– Dr. Susanne Piet

'Letting go means saying goodbye - from a familiar vision and from certain thinking patterns.'

- Dr. Susanne Piet

I guess you can call that condition - open hearted and open minded - :))))

PS: You just have to love 2-year-olds wisdom, conclusions and smart answers - we had a very good laugh at the lunch table -----my stomach still hurts....dry humor I call that......broad smile :)

PS from later: YEAH bike ride!!!!!!!! It's lighter again!!!! Felt very nice. Oh and before I forget 'lesson-learned' today for me, not everybody understands my humor ( which is meant as humor = not taking it too serious), honesty or what I mean with 'friendship', the real friendship, like a good friend.....oh well....I still go my way full of heart and soul. I don't get it, what is the problem? But oh well, like I said you only learn out of expierences, and this was one again, I just made and I still will go the way I go......stubborn-attitude.
I guess being cold-hearted and not-caring like a friend, the world can better deal with and no 'safe' fun in their lifes......NO FURTHER COMMENT! Chapter closed! :)

This was awesome - the sun, big and bright orange, unfortunately my phone camera didn't make a good shot of it.....it was just breath taking after this long grey.....:))))) -> ♥♥♥♥♥

Extra posting for tuesday: Provoking thoughts....

2012-01-10T15:25:00.002+01:00

Unfortunately the natural light is pretty poor today- the original looks a little brighter ;)

...since I explore 'love' these days I have some provoking thoughts going through my head. OF course I read again -lol- now, I have to view this more from ALL ANGLES, maybe I find some time creating tonight - find knowing....smiles, but here is the quote:

'Love is a basic need, as basic as freedom, so both have to be fulfilled. And a person who is full of love and free is the most beautiful phenomenon in the world. And then two persons of such beauty meet, their relationship is not a relationship at all. It is a relating. It is a constant, riverlike flow. It is continuously growing towards greater heights.'-Osho, Being in love

- Oh my, sounds like a dream, kind of unreal...wonder if that ever was experienced somewhere some time ? But life is a mystery, I know that, lol....never know....;) But I guess that only can happen between two people full of awareness, sensitivity, and definitely centered......'the maschine on top of my throat is working'.

And concerning love and freedom, yep you need both....otherways your soul won't fly......so maybe creating tonight....there is an urge (excited smile)....I guess topics will be love and freedom - lol- I keep you updated.....breeding time ;)

-Sparkling-glowing-pirates-eyes-Anke -EY! I am on adventure - some sort of inner-one I guess ;) -> going-finding-exploring-my-way-full-of-heart-and-soul ♥♥♥♥ and there is no stop button -lol- BUT meditation and bike rides ;)

Marlon Roudette - New Age

"The whole human past has been praising poverty and making it equal to spirituality, which is absolute nonsense. Spirituality is the greatest richness that can happen to a man. And it contains all other richnesses." -Osho

PS from the next day: Matchbox 20 - Soul
Matchbox 20 - Feel

I-N-T-E-G-R-A-T-E.....your enjoying.....

2012-01-10T08:52:00.002+01:00

Okay, one week ago I asked you to see/feel/find out what you are enjoying, now it's time to slowly integrate it into your everyday. Remember it's important for yourself, it's kind of taking care of yourself. Just try....no stress...little by little however it fits. Sometimes it fits just perfect and you will be surprised how easy you can fit little things into your everyday which you enjoy. Listen to your heart, soul, listen to them what you need....what feels good inside....what makes you smile......and there a lot more ways to integrate something into your life, maybe not just the way you want, but maybe in a different way, a way that works somehow...new ways.

And a quote :

'Indem wir unser Leben annehmen und uns zutiefst lebenig fuehlen, haben wir dan Zugang zur Quelle der Lebenskraft, die uns unablaessig naehrt.' - Mark Whitwell

' By accepting our lifes and feeling deeply alive, we have the access to the source of the vital energy of life, which is nourishing us relentless.' - Mark Whitwell

Smiles, Anke - Enjoy integrating!!!! :)))

My share from my heart today: This made me really smile inside this morning - BLUE SKY - wow it's amazing how that feels after weeks of grey.....and did you know that the BIRDS sing already?????? YES!!!! THEY do and that feels also very good....spring is closer.......-broad smile -> ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Unfortunately the grey is starting to take over again but - at least- a little BLUE SKY today :)

'Es ist schwer, das Glueck ist uns zufinden, und es ganz unmoeglich, es anderswo zu finden.'
– Nicolas Chamfort

' It is hard, to find the happines in oneself, and it is impossible, to find it somewhere else.'
-Nicolas Chamfort

Gossip - Heavy Cross

'Wenn du den spirituellen Pfad betretenwillst, ist dein wichtigster Proviant: Deine Liebe fuer andere fuehlende Wesen.'– Dalai Lama

'When you want to step onto the spiritual path, your most important provision is: Your love for other sensing beings.' - Dalai Lama

Sunday Collage: Living creating

2012-01-09T10:18:00.004+01:00

So back to full routine......school, Kindergarten, work, housework and the rest........not much to say this morning, maybe later in the day...so enjoy to look at the new collage - living creating- I am off to continue with my house duties, lol. And here is a cool music link, I just heard on SWR3......smiles, Anke :)

Olly Murs feat. Rizzle Kicks - Heart skips a beat

And some more Snow patrol - An olive grove facing the sea gotta love life music :)

PS from later: rainy day, so muffins-making-time.......chocolate or creamcheese topping??? I guess I let my kids make the decision, -smile- So, how is your weather today?

And a link to an article about a brave women (in german) - http://www.welt.de/wirtschaft/article13804136/Eine-Unternehmerin-bricht-mit-allen-Regeln.html

-All I say is PASSION :)-

'Da man uns verletzt hat, errichten wir eine Mauer um uns herum, damit man uns nie wieder verletzt; und wenn man eine Mauer um sich herum errichtet, wird man nur noch mehr verletzt. '

Krishnamurti, Über die Liebe

And some comedy ( in german) - Hotlines die die Welt noch braucht - Touchscreenhandy -SWR 3 und
Hotlines - Keinen Netzempfang --->LOL ♥♥♥♥

Wind, clouds, rain, sun, blue sky, and a nice surprise....

2012-01-08T12:06:00.000+01:00

....yep another two wheel -freedom time- felt nice - even the wind was pretty heavy this morning and all rain protected - I am able to learn - loud laughing.......Still I ENJOYED IT ALL THE WAY - broad grin-. Gotta get in, what you can get in, with biking lately, lol.

And I had a nice surprise right on the home way...some deers crossing....of course I took a photo ;)

So, off to continue my day, how is that 'enjoying' doing of yours? Found something?

Maybe interactive posting, depends how my day develops, so maybe see you around, smiles, Anke :)

Van Halen - Can't stop loving you

Yiruma - River Flows in you

PS: Just was thinking about something I read a couple of month ago, it was about the 'rewiring in your brain' by going new ways....yep that's what it feels today, resistance inside and outside, lol!!!! Oh well....still life is a constant change, and the more you fight against it, the harder it will be. Plus going healthier ways are better than being stuck in old 'unhealthy' ways and the reason 'because-you- do-since-you-can-remember', is for me not good enough - but that is everybodys personal decision to make. I guess either you stay flexible or you stay static..... ;)
Oh ! and yes ! I found ISLAND time...felt nice...collage tomorrow, the title is ' Living Creating' - I can reveal that already, smiles :)

The Problem as an Ego Tonic -Osho insights lol oh yes...my ego is fighting...I guess I just watch it shadow fighting - broad grin- and enjoy the senselessness ;)

"It takes a deep commitment to change and an even deeper commitment to grow."

~ Ralph Ellison

Cruisn' with the pirate boat.....

2012-01-07T16:57:00.004+01:00

...yep it runs pretty good after the FIX....crusin' on the Autobahn was FUN and with the right music even MORE, lol.....yes it was another inspirational IKEA day...but I didn't get pretty much anything, BECAUSE it was a mad house, still I enjoyed my little trip with lot's of Snow patrol :)
So I guess I am out of STUCK - feels very nice- BUT I think this 'stuck' part is just my way of 'breeding some knowing'. Yep - another one, something got more clear....and that feels nice and good.

So, off to 'create' the rest of my day, smiles, Anke :)

And yes I create in every way my life with lot's of heart and soul, feels good, feels whole.....:) -> ♥ (remark from later in the day: and with some resistance involved- which is not making it easy...bummer)

Here are some more snow patrol links:

Give me strength

Open your eyes

PS from later: I want SUMMER NOW - and an ISLAND......too tired for my Studio tonight :( I do not like that cold.....

Snow patrol - Chasing cars live

Inspirational lifes crossing.....

2012-01-06T21:55:00.005+01:00

...I have a couple people in my life which spark my creativity, my ideas. It's kind of interesting, each one of them kind of speaks to another part of my creative brain. Like, funny ideas, cool ideas or just sparkling collages, so this post is to my muses out there, because I just realized I have a couple people in my life who inspire me. One is special - because those are the sparks for my Collages, the muse with the wide soul - smile-

So now I have some questions going through my head:

How would you feel if somebody told you, you are her/his muse? Would you be shocked/panicked or would it make you smile inside that you can inspire someone to create? Let me know my curious me is curious, lol!

Because choosing your muse is out of your power...it just happens with all your heart and all your soul....lol.....:)))) -> ♥♥♥

So, yes my afternoon/evening was very enjoyable all I say is BIKE RIDE + COLLAGE TIME = BLISS

Smiles, 'walking- paint-splashes-Anke' :)

"The mystery never ends, it cannot end. That´s why it is called a mystery, it cannot be known ever. It will never become knowledge, that´s why it is called a mystery; something in it is eternally elusive. And that´s the whole joy of life. The great splendor of life is that it keeps you eternally engaged, searching, exploring. Life is exploration, life is adventure."
-Osho

Snow patrol - Run live

You know when you had something very good.....

2012-01-06T09:44:00.001+01:00

You know you had something very good, when you don't have it anymore....Like good service....but life has other plans sometimes....it is all good for something. Still reliable service is rare nowadays and should be more appreciated when you know you have/had.

Other than that, a fitting quote to my extra posting last night, on my calendar this morning:

'Die Liebe ist das Wohlgefallen am Guten; das Gute ist der einizige Grund der Liebe.
Lieben heisst: jemandem Gutes tun wollen.'

- Thomas von Aquin

' Love is the delight with the good; the good is the only reason of love. Loving means: to do somebody good.'

-Thomas von Aquin

Off to see what my day brings....smiles, Anke :)

PS: The pirate boat is running again, and this morning we 'sailed' to Kindergarten with lot's of pirates on board, lol :) EY!

PPS: You know how fast you can bike, when you got soaking wet (because you left your rainprotection at home and you get nasty cold fast)....so much for an easy taking bike ride, lol.....puh.....felt nice though :))) AND YES I TOOK A CALCULATED RISK again - but I had to go......:)

Extra posting for thursday: The heart matter...

2012-01-05T18:16:00.000+01:00

...that involves those 4 letters LOVE....is going through my head. There are different types of love or better what people call love, I guess. I know the possessive/controlling love, it cuts your freedom, I have been there, yep, but I question things. I am a rebel and sometimes you get to a point in your life you can't postphone to answer those questions, but back to the main subject. I think (yes I think too, lol) or feel that I discovered a different type of love the last year and still get to know it and somehow that got me to my own center of being.......it's so different, it's so unique, it's so whole, it's something special, I would say maybe something really rare...it's not really explainable but I have some quotes, yes from Osho....but he pretty much puts in words , for which I CAN NOT find words, what I experienced....kind of a mystery...like life, laughing out loud......so here it is.

"Love and centering are one phenomenon, they are not two. If you have known love, you cannot be anything but centered.
Love means coming to be at ease with existence. It may be through a lover, it may be through a friend, or it may be simply direct and immediate- through the sunrise,the sunset."
.......
'Love is enough unto itself, if your love is not the ordinary, biological instinctiv love. If it is not part of your ego, if it is not a power trip to dominate someone - if your love is just a pure joy, rejoicing in the being of the other for no reason at all, a sheer joy - awareness will follow this pure love just like a shadow. You need not worry about awareness.'
...........
"Love in its purest form is a sharing of joy. It asks nothing in return, it expects nothing; hence how can you feel hurt? When you don't expect, there is no possibility of being hurt. Then whatsoever comes is good, and if nothing comes, that too is good. Your joy was to give, not to get. Then one can love from thousands of miles away; there is no need even to be physically present."- Osho, Being in Love

Like I said, I am still getting to know it, for some reason, it still is revealing it's beauty little by little - a mystery- like the whole life is kind of, because sometimes you just don't know the why but you know you needed that 'whatever-happening- it- is/was' in the right moment - like somebody is showing you the way back to your tracks of life.

I don't know if that makes sense to most of you, maybe only some can understand or have a clue what I am sharing here. And I am not just repeating something, it was a growing I went through...I question things and view it from all angles before I can say it makes kind of sense.

Smiles, Anke :)

PS: hahaha, I normally don't believe in horoscopes but this is what my 'osho-horoscope' showed....funny!

Time for......

2012-01-05T10:22:00.002+01:00

....some piano to play and to listen to PIRATES music - EY! -unfortunately still without my 'boat' but in the living room works too!

And spreading the wings to feel the wind - flying soul........... :))))) or activating those fighting parts in me to get out of STUCK.......lol, I am getting there......mischievous smile - 'Ey, I am getting there !' -> ♥ tattaaaaa....I found the combination, hehehehe :)

Pirates of the Caribeen - Soundtrack music

'Pirate-smile-sparkling-eyes-spreading-wings', Anke :)

EY!

PS: How is your 'enjoying' doing? Found something already? And remember it's not just big things, it's also little things, like a cup of coffee, a piece of chocolate or music.......;)

Andreas Bourani - So leicht so schwer ( click on song title)

What a weather, lot's of storm plus a thunder storm with hail and strong winds....maybe some 'ghost pirates' showing their power, LOL! Sigh, my crazy creative brain ;)

'Laß los, was du festhälst,
Und alles wahrhaft dir Gehörende
Wird wie durch einen Zauber
Sofort in deinem Leben erscheinen. '

-Paul Williams

There is hope floating on the surface.......to maybe get this 'nose' problems solved and no more obstacles in the way....FOR BIKE RIDES.........broad smile - you know how that feels - very good........:))))

Wednesday Collage: Be on hold

2012-01-04T16:53:00.001+01:00

'Be on hold' - lol - okay I knew that already before the title of the collage developed......oh well.....let's be on hold and just get through it, maybe sometime soon somebody will pick up on the other line - a metaphor for today - Hahaahaaa...okay, this funny thought just came into my mind while typing - yep crazy creative brain - broad grin- :) at least I still have my humor in this 'be on hold' time...gotta entertain yourself somehow, lol- one eye winking (Petzauge- could not find a good translation)

Off to continue my day......see you!

Smiles, Anke :)

PS: Marlon Roudette - Anit Hero (click on the song)

PPS: What do you want from life? Be all colors mixed together (which after my husbands definition is black) or like the rainbow?

I want RAINBOW or better I am rainbow - connecting can be sometimes so easy and sometimes so hard......

And a song I just heard , cool beat....
Dedication To My Ex - feat. Andre 3000 BMF

'Der wahre Beruf des Menschen ist, zu sich selbst zu kommen.'

-Hermann Hesse

'The true profession of man is to find his way to himself.'

-Hermann Hesse

PPS: Just went back to my first blog posts of 2011 - that kind of balanced me again- showed me what change I went through - makes me kind of speechless......what is possible! How much more calmer I got, how much more I know myself and how to live my life more fullfilled. Wow, all worth it going and something I needed tonight, that reminder, that is was all worth it, and it is still worth following my heart..... :)))

freedom - aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Strong

Going the way towards - being alive again-

2012-01-04T08:30:00.000+01:00

"The only way to have a friend is to be one." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

...taking care of:

FIRST : getting rid of my sinus infection so I can go for bike rides again.

SECOND: making the best out of my 'being stuck in winter/situation/unpatience'- finding a way to get going again. Trying to change frustration into some kind of action - I know I will find my way, when the time is ripe. I guess it's not ripe yet - LOL- so back to being patient ;)

THIRD: Enjoying the little unexpected things in life which just show up when you need them. And holding back the temptation to write a message, I would like to, just to share some sunshine, share some fun. Like a SendingOverflowingSparkles because coincidences touch me, everytime it happens - so weird- and the question is why but how was the quote from Rilke - don't ask for answers they can't be given to you now.....sigh...and loving everything else, loving the question itself....yes that is not always easy especially when you feel stuck again - like I said time to take care of myself - finding a way to let my soul fly, my heart beat with joy and feeling the wind of going again. }-> I guess this was the share from my heart today

But first things first, let the Doc decide what this condition is in my sinuses - tomorrow - I am fed up! I know you can tell -lol- Smiles....

So, let's see what else this day brings - and I want to share here. Maybe some more music, maybe some quotes, here is already one I discovered last night on fb:

'A work of art is the unique result of a unique temperament. Its beauty comes from the fact that the author is what he is. It has nothing to to do with the fact that other people want what they want. Indeed, the moment that an artist takes notice of what other people want, and tries to supply the demand, he ceases to be an artist, and becomes a dull or an amusing craftsman, an honest or a dishonest tradesman.'
-Oscar Wilde

Have a great wednesday - smiles, Anke :)

Coldplay - Charlie Brown - live

Sometimes you just miss things.....

2012-01-03T21:52:00.004+01:00

to feel alive - I miss it -

Smiles, Anke :)

Enjoying......

2012-01-03T09:37:00.000+01:00

ENJOYING...is getting you connected to the center of your being. I read it, I tried and experienced it. It does. Now, what are you enjoying? Really enjoy, what makes your heart beat faster just thinking about it, makes you exciting, makes you feel an energy rush from deep inside travelling all over in your body, what makes you desire to do, what activity/thing/event/connection are you enjoying, with what or who are you enjoying to spend time ? I know a lot of questions.....take your time to find out, search for it, listen to yourself, your body, your heart and your soul, some of those parts will tell you. All together they are smart...really smart.Try to be open to all that is arising inside, to thoughts they arise out of the blue, even when you feel uncomfortable with them, try to view it from all angles, give it a chance, there are a lot more ways possible to integrate something into your life than you think. So for today, just let this thought of 'enjoying' circle in the back of your mind, heart, soul. Just circling and trying, no action to integrate yet into your everyday. Take your time, give yourself time, be good to yourself, open-minded-open-hearted.......

Smiles, Anke :)

The quote from my daily calender:

'Alles, worauf Liebe wartet, ist die Gelegenheit.'
- Miguel de Cervantes (1547- 1616, span. Schriftsteller)

'All, whereupon love is waiting, is the opportunity.'
-Miguel de Cervantes ( 1547-1616, span. Writer)

-SUN-

just for 2-3 hours but we caught it - felt nice - recharging with lot's of bright light

And a share from my heart today:

Something I am enjoying today - 3 little books with lot's of treasures in there - QUOTES - LOL! :)

PS:
Dear weather god - I am so sick of this weather, please some steady pressure and lot's of sun -maybe the vibes around me will be more cheery as well - sigh......are you feeling the same way? I guess that is the biggest challenge for me this winter, to stay balanced without my movement I enjoy so much, especially I would be able to go but this stupid stupid cold is not GOING AWAY....-scream- fed up.....baeeehhhh......... ;) - sounds like some island time tonight-
And a link to share with just a huge YES! - http://shuttersisters.com/home/2012/1/3/stepping-in-to-something-new.html

Back to music: Rihanna - We found love lallaaaallllllaaaaaa..........:)))

PPS: Oh my, yes:

'Hingabe entsteht durch Wiedererkennen:
Trifft man auf etwas, das dem eigenen Wesen entspricht,
wird man unweigerlich ergriffen.'

-Lama Ole Nydahl

Day 2 - and the challenges are already starting....

2012-01-02T15:10:00.001+01:00

...first of all....dear routine, I am so ready....half this week....still, at least the half way feels already good, lol. Other than that, I have a sensation that this year will bring lot's of challenges. Phew... I need lot's of energy and calm nerves, lol. Why? Well, my four-wheel-piece-of-metal decided to not start anymore - I guess it didn't want to go home from Kindergarten ;) .Yep.....all lights worked but NO sound. Oh well, all worked out good, thanks to my dad - the guy for emergencies- :))

And a share from my heart today?
Sometimes it is just funny how coincidence happen, right when you need them....it's definitely the unexpected, unplanned, little things that are cheer-ups in life. Smiles. Kind of amazing.....

'Sich freuen heißt,
ausschauen nach Gelegenheiten
zur Dankbarkeit.'
-Karl Barth

'To rejoice means,
to be on the look-out for gratefulness.'

-Karl Barth

'Hast du dich je gefragt,
wie viele Engel dir zur Seite stehen?
Alle.
Sie können gar nicht anders.'
-Mike Dooley

'Did you ever ask yourself,
how many angles are on your side?
All.
They just can't help it but be there.'

- Mike Dooley

So let's see what else this day brings - half more to go.
Oh - and- yes I did my first Collage for 2012 ( always still type 2011).....this automated fingers, lol.

Enjoy- I did!

'Let us be grateful to the peoplewho make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.'
-Marcel Proust

Smiles, Anke :)

PS: And another share I just discovered on FB:

„In meinem langen Leben habe ich eine Lektion gelernt: dass das Wichtigste ist, sich darüber klar zu werden, wofür man lebt - und ich glaube, es ist nicht nur, um Brücken zu bauen oder Geld zu verdienen, sondern um etwas wirklich Wichtiges zu tun, etwas für die Menschheit. Freude zu bringen, Hoffnung, das geistige Leben reicher zu machen, weil du gelebt hast, das ist das Wichtigste.“ Arthur Rubinstein (1887 - 1982), US-amerikanischer Pianist polnischer Herkunft

Happy NEW YEAR - new motto for 2012 - and catching raindrops...

2012-01-01T10:30:00.000+01:00

"Nicht der Wind, sondern die Segel bestimmen den Kurs."

- Deutsches Sprichwort

"Not the wind, but the sails are determining the course."

- German saying

Happy NEW 2012 - with lot's of fireworks from a window with a wide view

Catching raindrops - whatelse are you going to do outside on a rainy day? -Smiles-

Well, I hope you started your NEW YEAR pretty well....I started it with family and friends and having all other people I care about in my thoughts - Wishing you all a great year, a year full of new things to learn - because learning is good - lot's of strength to make it through not always easy happenings, lot's of fun and enjoyment in your everyday life, special moments which touch your heart, your soul, your whole being. Make it a fest - it's your life!

So, concerning my MOTTO for my blog in 2012, after 'expressing myself-2011' it will be 'follow my heart'.....I guess you could already figure that after my last collage, lol.

I got a taste in 2011 how it is, to follow my heart and this year I try to go this way even more. I know it's not always easy but it feels so whole, so much more enriching life. And like I started blogging a year ago, I don't know where it will lead, I just know, that I will go 2012 somehow with my heart beating, fully alive, sharing here what inspires me, what makes my inside twinkle, what life can offer, what challenges it provides, what this year is bringing/giving, just going my way wherever it will lead - learning out of experiences- open hearted - free spirited - flying soul - listening - living - enjoying - finding beauty.

So are you with me? I am - LOL- So maybe see you around again on my journey through life!

'Neue Herausforderungen erfordern neue Wege. '

– Gottfried Niebaum
'New challenges demand new ways.'

- Gottfried Niebaum

And since somewhere behind the heart is also the soul involved, here a 'spirit-flying' poem from Rilke:

Wie soll ich meine Seele halten, dass
sie nicht an deine rührt? Wie soll ich sie
hinheben über dich zu anderen Dingen?
Ach gerne möchte ich sie bei irgendetwas
Verlorenem im Dunkel unterbringen
an einer fremden stillen Stelle, die
nicht weiterschwingt, wenn deine Tiefen schwingen.
Doch alles, was uns anrührt, dich und mich,
nimmt uns zusammen wie ein Bogenstrich,
der aus zwei Saiten eine Stimme zieht.

-Rainer Maria Rilke

in englisch:

'How can I keep my soul in me, so that

it doesn't touch your soul? How can I raise

it high enough, past you, to other things?

I would like to shelter it, among remote

lost objects, in some dark and silent place

that doesn't resonate when your depths resound.

Yet everything that touches us, me and you,

takes us together like a violin's bow,

which draws one voice out of two seperate strings.

Upon what instrument are we two spanned?

And what musician holds us in his hand?

Oh sweetest song.'

- Rainer Maria Rilke

Smiles, Anke :)

Alexandra Burke - Hallelujah

PS: First collage for 2012 is done - felt very good - tomorrow photos :))))))
PPS:
'The moments when something new has enteredus, something unknown; our feelings grow mute in shy embarrassment, everythingin us withdraws, a silence arises, and the new experience, which no one knows,stands in the midst of it all and says nothing.' -Rainer Maria Rilke ( since it's a Rilke day - smile-)

2011 - Expressing myself - Mixed Media Art Collages

2011-12-31T08:00:00.000+01:00

This is the Collage I started the year 2011with - amazing - those headlines carry so much happening in them and this makes me smile from deep inside my heart - this collages says it all - and a big surprise when I actually realized it.

So here is a translation for the englisch readers:

-Away from the land of dissappointment - I had lot's of tailwind on my way - Nothing is like it seems - you see each other twice - new ways into the future - in times of changes - one you - roots and wings - extending summer - not romanticizing - lot's of emotions - when the turtle is spinning like a carousel - taking the serious out of seriousness - the matter with the colors - getting more productive - perspective for new projects -

„Thetruth is not already given to you; you have to create it. In a way, each momentyou are creating yourself.” –Osho, Destiny, Freedom and the Soul

So here are my collages of 2011: Lot's of color - words and feelings - expressed

recycled

“Ifyou can make your ordinary life a thing of beauty and art, all that you hadalways desired will start happening of its own accord.” – Osho, Destiny,Freedom and the Soul

Smiles, Anke : )

Have a great start into the New Year 2012!!!!!!

Thanks for stopping by and joining my traveling through life!

Jessi J - Who you are

PS ( you thought no PS today, lol, no you are not getting out of it, lol): Some FB shares I want to share as well:
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'Dernahe Feind von Herzensgüte(oder auch einfach Liebe) ist Anhänglichkeit.Zunächst mag Anhänglichkeit sich wie Liebe fühlen.
Aber wenn sie wächst, wird sie immer klarer zumGegenteil, charakterisiert durch Anhaften, Kontrollieren und Angst.'

Jack Kornfield

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'DerTraum von Freiheit und Glück
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Drei Freunde stehen beisammen und unterhalten sich überdas Leben.
"Wisst Ihr", sagt der eine, "in 10Jahren werde ich 50. Dann möchte ich mich zur Ruhe setzen und das Leben nurnoch genießen. Die Kinder sind versorgt, mein Ältester übernimmt meine Firma.Dann möchte ich mit meiner Frau verreisen, die Welt sehen, richtig langeunterwegs sein, Spaß haben, es mir gut gehenlassen. Bis dahin muss ich noch viel arbeiten, um mir alles zu ermöglichen.Doch dann bin ich endlich frei. Dann beginnt endlich das richtige Leben."
Eine Woche später sagt ihm der Arzt, dass er Krebshat.
Der andere denkt sich: Mensch, das Leben ist kurzund voller Überraschungen. Das soll mir nicht passieren. Ich werde es bessermachen. Ich werde jetzt beginnen zu leben. Nicht später. Ich verkaufe die Firmasofort, ziehe in den Süden, verlasse meine Frau und suche mir eine hübschejunge Freundin. Ich werde all meine Träume jetzt sofort leben, all das, was ichimmer schon wollte und mich nicht getraute. Ich werde es jetzt tun.
Da kommt ein Bus vorbei und überfährt ihn.
Der dritte Mann hatte dem Gespräch still zugehörtund das Geschehene still beobachtet. Er macht einfach weiter wie bisher. Erarbeitet und führt ein ganz gewöhnliches Leben.
Ein anderer fragt ihn: "Sag, hast du nichtAngst, dass dir das gleiche widerfährt, wie deinen Freunden? Willst du jetztnicht auch dein Leben verändern und es noch besser machen?"
Der Mann lächelt, sieht den Wolken nach undantwortet nach einer Weile: "Ich wüsste nicht, wozu ich anders lebensollte, als ich es bisher tue. Ich wüsste nicht, wohin ich gehen sollte, um etwaszu suchen, was ich nicht ohnehin schon habe. Ich schließe die Augen und findeunendliche Freiheit. Ich schließe die Augen und finde sprudelndes Leben. Ichschließe die Augen und finde immense Zufriedenheit, Erfüllung und Glück. Ichschließe die Augen und finde Wahrheit. Ich schließe die Augen und finde mich.Sag mir, was mehr kann es geben?" '
von Asmita Pistorius

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'Bepatient. Respond to every callthat excites your spirit. Ignore those that make you fearful and sad, thatdegrade you back toward disease and death.' -Rumi

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And yep...my cold is getting more, but it was all worth pushing my 'limit' - because I SLEPT very good!!!! :)))) Plus free spirit-ing felt awesome!!!!!!!! Did I mention that I love my bike - LOL- ( I know I did and you are probably already sick hearing it ;)))) ) mischievous smile

Happy NEW YEAR!!!!

Die Aerzte - Westerland

MGMT - Kids

2nd last day of 2011 - and the collage from last night....

2011-12-30T09:20:00.000+01:00

....this time I finish different than last year - because that 'deep' longing inside (some longing you probably will have sometimes)- that feeling I miss something deep inside, is not there today - is not there for awhile - and that feels very good. Kind of being open to the development of a day- being aware of the moment and don't expect anything is an amazing experience . I agree it needs lot's of PATIENCE and trust in life- which I learned, HAD to learn in the last 12 months and honeslty it was NOT ALWAYS EASY and still is sometimes hard, but so worth trying. That involved a lot of new ways, just going , following something inside that pushed me to go, even I was scared, unsure, insecure. But it's like Steve Jobs said:

'Your time is limited, so don't waste itliving someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living withthe results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinionsdrown out your own inner voice. ' - Steve Jobs

My inner journey was kick-started by a book from Laura Munson , I was fed up with being misery lot of times. Misery created by too much thinking, too much analyzing, too much unpatience, too tight 'self-created-borders' in my mind, too much past, too much future.

Something got activated in me again by a spark and I decided instead of falling back into longing/misery/missing deep inside, I tried going a new way- a more freeing way- a way that feels more whole, following my heart again, listening to my intuition and just trust life. Osho got in my way and his way of thinking inspired me to give it a try, if it really is like he writes - so yes I was brave, maybe sometimes too brave but those experiences I gathered through it, is priceless, like he calls it ' rise in love - not fall '.

I learned that you have to trust yourself first and love yourself first before you can really love somebody else, respect the other like you want to be respected and accepting my own limits and other limits. Taking care of myself got even more important but in a healthy way - in a way I can fullfill my well inside until it's full, overflowing and I just want to pour it out, throw it out, share for free some of my energy that is bubbling up from deep down and is sooooooo sparkling refreshing - making you feel so alive - so full of life - makes you more aware of the beauty around you in the everyday - makes you so aware of what you need, how you can take care of yourself, without a bad conscience. Plus that freedom and silence that comes within you is astonishing! And it amazes me, the less thinking, the more energy you have for other things. So, thinking does take a lot of energy out of you - and most of that thinking is just unproductive anyway.

Yes, this year was HUGE - the challenges were not easy - going lot's of new ways- surprising new ways - I would have never even tried to think of - being unstuck - so I guess it's like Albert Einstein said once:

'Es gibt nur zwei Arten, sein Leben zu leben: Entwederso, als gäbe es keine Wunder, oder so, als wäre alles ein Wunder. ' -Albert Einstein

'There are two ways of living your life: Either like, there are no wonders at all, or like, everything is a wonder.' -Albert Einstein

I know, I changed this year and I know it was not always easy and probably still is not easy for my surroundings, to understand, relate - but I don't give my inner freedom up anymore - I enjoy being me, the real me, the me with a center.

And thanks to my family, friends, my art, special individuals, weird coincidences, all the happenings, inspiring quotes, music, my bike and nature I was able to go this 'new' way.

Smiles, 'curious-me-reviewing-her-year'- Anke :)

PS: So let's see what the NEW YEAR will bring :)
PPS: Tomorrow I will show my collages from the year, not sure yet if all - 53 is a lot- let's see ;)

James Morrison ft.Jessie J - Up

PPPPS: I took a calculated risk -lol- either my cold goes away now or I will be down all the way- and I brought some 'sun burning through the sky' photo for you! FELT NICE - ahhhhh freeeedddddoooommmmm......so did you do something for yourself today?

Oh my....an artist confession....

2011-12-29T20:41:00.003+01:00

....well first greetings from the 'island' - tonight was quite a struggle to finish the collage I started. Usually I find a way to finish a collage pretty easy but tonight- puh a struggle, it stirred all my insde up....well I was working on a collage, kind of a review of my year 2011, which carried a lot of stirring feelings - I guess- or the title that developed while creating makes me so excited, I am not sure, honestly, what this feeling is inside of me, a combination of excitement and I guess some fear....for ways I might have to go the next year, because following your heart is not always a smooth ride - it's full of life and passion - puh....this is big or should I say huge, lol.....I don't know what ways it will be, but this feels a little scary....well that's what you get when you have a-soul-searching-and-heart-reactivating-year behind you, well almost, only a couple more days left of 2011.......and I guess ways will just develop by going....

'Wege entstehen dadurch, dass man sie geht.' - Franz Kafka

'Ways arise thereby, by just going.' - Franz Kafka

off to eat - hunger- lot's of hunger - LOL-

Photos tomorrow, it's still wet the 'Following your heart - always' creation.

Smiles, Anke :)

Catching the sun......

2011-12-29T12:49:00.001+01:00

.....yes this morning or better around lunch the sun made it through the clouds, felt very nice - LIGHT- WIND- FRESH AIR- at least some moving. That's all that is in right now - because I don't like how this cold makes me feel - weak- or maybe it's also the weather - not fun on my circulatory.......bummer........I need a cheer up - NOW lol......let's see what this day will bring, half way over, half more to come.
Off to catch my energy again (stupid ##$!#%$# viruses).

See you around, smiles, Anke :)

'Wer liebt, der leidet nicht.
Aber der Weg zum Lieben ist oft schmerzhaft.'

- Robert Betz

"Who loves, doesn't suffer.
But the way to love is often painful.'

-Robert Betz

PS: The weather forecast says 'snow' above 400m - after my 'circulatorys-condition' I would say YES - this feels like snow, lol ;) (because for some reason when snow is coming, I fight with low blood pressure)

PPS: Found my cheer up - all I say is music, driving and canvases, lol....sounds like some 'island' time tonight.....SMILE - I hate feeling weak....I know just accepting would be the best....but I am just human also and sometimes not getting identified with being weak is hard but I decided I had enough weak today, lol.....-mischievous grin- :)))

4 more days of 2011 and I made a decision.....

2011-12-28T09:23:00.002+01:00

....how my blog is going to continue! Well, I decided to blog pretty much like I do now ( because it's so much fun, a highlight in my day), but my motto will change......which I will tell you on the first of 2012 - smiles-
And since there is no sun AGAIN here a photo from some light.......

Off to get going, the last couple of days taking it easy, makes me all unorganized, lol - well sometimes you just need to be lazy and not behind everything right away like constant 'toys' moving out of the way ;) Plus being weak with a cold does not make it better, lol

Smiles, Anke :)

Mumford and Sons - 'The cave'

And a share from the Happinez FB page:

'Echte Freunde

Freunden kann auch mal der Kragen platzen, wenn sie mit Dir reden,
aber nur weil ihr Herz für dich bis zum Halse schlägt.

Freunde stört es nicht, bei dir fernzusehen, auch wenn du schon
längst ins Bett gegangen bist.

Freunde kämpfen für dich nächtelang im Gebet und sagen dir:
»Ich habe neulich an dich gedacht!«

Freunde möchten deine Welt kennen lernen und entdecken immer
neue Erdteile.

Freunde erleben dich mit verklebten Augen, ungewaschenen Haaren
und sehen dahinter deine Einzigartigkeit und Schönheit.

Freunde können es sich leisten, bei einem Witz, den du erzählst,
nach der Pointe zu fragen.

Bei Freunden kannst du nachts um halb drei klingeln und sie fragen
dich: »Kaffee oder tee?«

Freunde reden manchmal blödes Zeug, weil sie wissen, dass du
keine Goldwaage im Keller hast.

Freunde kennen sich nicht in deiner Brieftasche aus, dafür aber in
deinem Kühlschrank.

Freunde geben dir im Winter ihr letztes Hemd und behaupten, sie
wollten sich sowieso gerade sonnen.

Freunde machen es so ähnlich wie Gott: Sie mögen dich so wie du bist,
trauen dir aber zu, dass du dich verändern kannst.'

Albrecht Gralle

Lift UP - let's go!

2011-12-27T13:06:00.005+01:00

Quote in the collage: ' Der Weg zum Ziel beginnt an dem Tag, an dem du die hundertprozentige Verantwortung fuer dein Tun uebernimmst.' -Dante Alighieri

In english: 'The way to the destination is beginning on that day, on which you take 100% responsibility for your doings.' -Dante Alighieri

Sometimes a heart needs a lift up - how about yours? Do feel your heart, does it beat with excitement every day to be alive or does your heart need a lift up?

Smiles, Anke :)

PS: YES I am a fighter - a fighter for the light - because I know how it felt being in the dark and how wonderful it feels to find the way back to being alive -no matter what challenges there were/are/will be - at least I try! Because I know it's possible!!!!!!

PPS from later: I WANT SUN AND that this stupid cold is over NOW, so I can go for BIKE RIDES AGAIN.............sigh...... ;)

Andreas Bourani - Eisberg

PPPS: Something somebody shared on facebook, I don't know the author so this is the quote:
' IF "Plan A" didn't work. The alphabet has 25 more letters ! Stay cool' - lol - leaves you way more options, doesn't it, ;)

Coldplay - Charlie Brown (live)

An evening full of music.....

2011-12-26T12:06:00.003+01:00

....we went to live music last night with the band 'Sidewalk' - they are awesome and I was at some point exhausted from dancing - but I made the best out of the evening, having fun dancing to fun rhythm.....and this morning I needed some distance - I felt stuck in myself and just did what I was kind of dreaming out loud last week - suprising myself again - going new ways - better ways- but I had to take care of myself.

So off to continue the second holiday with the quote I shared before a couple of times but it fits to well today:

“To be yourself in aworld that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatestaccomplishment.”

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

(And the hardest is when you have to be strong and are actually just feeling like being weak )

Smiles, Anke :)

-Freestyle artistic expression-

2011-12-25T10:07:00.000+01:00

When you have kids, it's never boring, well, last night this was one of their presents, a stage entrance. Since our middle one has some affection to act and sing this was the perfect present. They had a blast performing a private show for us last night. Amazing what they came up with, so lot's of laughter in our living room. It's amazing how kids can develop their own talents when you let them to express it!

So off to continue the first holiday, and let's see what else this day brings.....I definitely looking forward to tonight - I just say 'live' - more tomorrow!

Smiles, Anke :)

And a quote share:

'Dulächelst – und die Welt verändert sich.' -Buddha

'You smile - and the world changes.' -Buddha

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Personalityis aggressive, violent, dominating, political. Individuality is silent, loving,compassionate; it is religious….” - Osho

Have a great 25th December :)))))

PS: Queen - Spread your wings

PPS: I am working on my review of this years art: Wow - I was productive: 42 drawings and 53 Collages ( minus a couple, which I recycled) :)))))

A present for you......

2011-12-24T14:05:00.001+01:00

And a little Christmas present for you online: Some of my favorite quotes :) Maybe some can inspire you as well, smiles, Anke :)

'Zu einem vollkommenen Menschen gehört die Kraft des Denkens, die Kraftdes Willens, die Kraft des Herzens.'
-Ludwig Feuerbach

'When you have emptied all thecontent — thoughts, desires, memories, projections, hopes — when all is gone,for the first time you find yourself, because you are nothing but that purespace, that virgin space within you.
Unburdened by anything, that contentless consciousness,that´s what you are! Seeing it, realizing it, one is free. One is freedom, oneis joy, one is bliss."
-Osho

'Die einzige Möglichkeit, eine Versuchung zu überwinden, ist, sich ihrhinzugeben.'

-Oscar Wilde

'Der Mensch bringt sogar die Wüsten zum Blühen. Die einzige Wüste, die ihmnoch Widerstand bietet, befindet sich in seinem Kopf.'

-Ephraim Kishon

'Finden aber heißt:
frei sein,
offen stehen,
kein Ziel haben.'

-Hermann Hesse

'Kräfte lassen sich nicht mitteilen, sondern nur wecken.'

– Ludwig Büchner

'Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopelessswaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero inyour soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have neverbeen able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real..it is possible.. it's yours. –'

- Ayn Rand

'Was Menschen aus Liebe tun,das geschieht immer jenseits von gut und böse.'

-Friederich Nietzsche

'Wenn jemand auf der Suche nach seinem persönlichenLebensweg ist, dann wird das ganze Universum dazu beitragen, damit dieser aucherreicht, was er will.'

- Paulo Coelho

'Jeder, der mit seinem Verstand identifiziert iststatt mit seiner wahren Stärke, dem tieferen, im Sein verankerten Selbst, wirddie Angst als ständigen Begleiter haben.'

- Eckhart Tolle

'Du bist der Meister und du bist der Weg.
Wo sonst willst du suchen?'

-Dhammapada

'Courage doesn't always roar.Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll tryagain tomorrow.'

-Mary Anne Radmacher

'In dem Maße, wie wir unseren Kopf

von alten, längst durchlebten Geschichten leeren,
können neue Räume entstehen
und eine geheimnisvolle Freude dort hineinfließen.
Unsere Intuition entwickelt sich,
wir werden mutiger, riskieren mehr,
tun, was uns in den SInn kommt,
ohne lange zu fragen, ob es richtig oder falschist.'

-Paulo Coelho

'Aber wenn man sich ganz fühlt, und still ist und diereinen Freuden der Liebe und Freundschaft genießt, dann ist durch einebesondere Sympathie jede unterbrochene Freundschaft, jede halbverschiedneZärtlichkeit wieder auf einmal lebendig.'

-Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

'Wen der Himmel retten will,den schützt er durch die Liebe.'

-Laotse

'Was wir am nötigsten brauchen, ist ein Mensch, deruns zwingt, das zu tun, was wir können.'

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

'Jenseits von Richtig und Falsch gibt es einen Ort. Dort treffen wir uns.'
-Rumi

'Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in theheart.'

~KahlilGibran

'I see mypath, but I don't know where it leads. Not knowing where I'm going is whatinspires me to travel it.'
- Rosalia de Castro

'Wennjemand seinen Weg gefunden hat, darf er keine Angst haben. Er muss auch den Mutaufbringen, Fehler zu machen.'

-Paulo Coelho, Brida

'Deep in the human unconsciousness is a pervasive needfor a logical universe that makes sense. But the real universe is always onestep beyond logic.'

-Frank Herbert, Dune

"The only thing that mattersin life, is your own opinion about yourself."

-Osho

Merry Christmas - Frohe Weihnachten

2011-12-24T09:38:00.002+01:00

Dear blog readers, friends and family I wish you a Merry Christmas full of light, laughter and warmth in your heart! And in case you are missing some of those in you today - I have some to share! Because I had the opportunity yesterday to go for a bike ride (which felt like freedom), was able to create the last Christmas presents without distrubance and was able to sleep without almost all disturbance....lol- sounds like heaven? Kind of ! - Broad smile- And remember not to forget to share your 'light' inside! Thanks to all my close friends and special individuals this year who helped me to go the way full of light !!!!!!!!!! And still keep me going!

Smiles, Anke :)

Pink - Bridge of Light

Train - Shake up Christmas

'Mögenaus jedem Samen,
den du säst,
wunderschöne Blumen werden,
auf dass sich die Farben der Blüten
in deinen Augen spiegeln
und sie dir ein Lächeln aufs Gesicht zaubern.'

irischer Segenswunsch

Extra posting for friday: Connecting or 'mirror-neuron-ing'

2011-12-23T14:03:00.002+01:00

....something I read (in Happinez) last night is going through my head....made my 'curious me' alert....you have some neurons, called mirror neurons ( Spiegelneuronen) in your brain which can feel what others are feeling or something like that. Pretty amazing actually and it makes sense to me. Professor Joachim Bauer is a specialist in it and the quote from him: ' Liebe ist eine besonders zauberhafte Form der Spiegelung' ( in english: ' Love is a special enchanting form of mirroring' ) is still circulating in the back of my soul . Gives love not just a physical meaning but something bigger, quite interesting. So 'clicking' means you can mirror the other better than others? Like crazy brain clicks better with crazy brain, lol!!!! -Just joking-

Okay, something to think about -since Christmas is the fest of Love-

Smiles, 'viewing-this-interesting-fact-from-all-angles' Anke :)

Taylor Swift - Drops of Jupiter (live) laallllaaaaa.......eah-eah-eahe....tell me.......llaaalllaaa :)

And some photo with the title : 'When you think you can go the easy and fast way.....' -which left an even bigger mess, lol - that's the challenges I am challenging today - loud laughing- :)

PLUGGED !

PS: Bicycle - bicycle - bicycle....ahhhh felt awesome- high speed - well I guess all the stress had to be released. I just love my BIKE -balanced-
:))))))

Snow patrol - This isn't everything you are , greetings from the island -smiles-

PPS: Laugh out loud.....I guess......:)

'A woman is like a tea bag, – younever know how strong she is until she's in hot water.'

Anna Eleanor Roosevelt

Last minute finishings.....

2011-12-23T10:12:00.002+01:00

...unorganized me this year.....finishing up a present, or better trying to but it is not working with my youngest one getting into the creative mess in my Studio, so I have to postphone till tonight. I still need to wrap the others also.....yep not really motivated for Christmas this year. After all that stress with this stupid plastic card the last couple of days (which was for sure misused, I got a confirmation - what a relieve I knew before Christmas) my brain is refusing to get back into that stressful thinking mode. Or should I say my heart is refusing to be 'stressed' out again, lol - at least I found the emergency BREAK - lol!
Anyway, off to do some housework, wish you a great 23rd December!

And to all who won't be online the next days - MERRY CHRISTMAS to YOU!!!!!

Smiles, Anke :)

And a quote from Cecelia Ahern (I read in the new Happinez last night):

'Habe den Mut, Deine eigenen Erfahrungen, Deine eigene Fehler zu machen. Das ist gelebtes Leben. Wichtig ist, es ueberhaupt versucht zu haben.' -Cecelia Ahern

Translation as good as possible:

'Be brave, to make your own experiences, you own mistakes. This is lived life. It's important, that after all you made the attempt.' - Cecelia Ahern

Back to follow my heart....

2011-12-22T08:53:00.001+01:00

...because this week I was pretty much stuck in my head -thinking- again. That does me no good- it's narrowing my 'vision' and being plus it's too stressful. So back to follow my heart again....feels good, feels so much more whole, feels so much more centered........but when you wouldn't be off center once in awhile, you wouldn't know how to appreciate the silence in your head (no thought after the next, chasing each other). And because that makes me smile inside, actually twinkle inside I throw some of my inside twinkle in the air, maybe you will be able to catch some - smiles, Anke :)

And a music link for today:

Soehne Mannheims - Freiheit - so fitting to my collage from yesterday -

And a quote for today from Paulo Coelho:

Allesist miteinander verbunden, und hat einen Sinn. Obwohl dieser Sinn meistverborgen bleibt, wissen wir, daß wir unserer wahren Mission auf Erden nahsind, wenn unser Tun von der Energie der Begeisterung durchdrungen ist.

-Paulo Coelho, Der Zahir

Translation into english:

'Everything is connected to each other, and has a meaning. Although the meaning stays often hidden, we know, that we follow our true mission on earth, when our conduct is steeped with enthusiasm.'

-Paulo Coelho, Der Zahir

So, that's what following my heart means to me!

And again Christmas Lights from Coldplay (but this time live from Berlin)

Dear sanity....you challenge me right now - lol-

2011-12-21T20:46:00.001+01:00

Hello from the island- in bad need of tonight - all day on the go - extra stuff to take care off and kids plus less nature and almost no movement does me no good . HOW I AM ABLE TO SURVIVE this awful cold and grey weather????? That is a very good question - I guess with lot's of art and extra posting, lol. Well, the energy has to go somewhere - music helps a little - so enough talking, here is my ISLAND - let's fly there, who is coming with me? LOL!

Hope you had a nice evening, mine was okay, at least I recharged somehow for tomorrow, whatever challenges will come by - in a better 'condition' - smiles, Anke :)

An experience I definitely don't want again...

2011-12-21T08:54:00.000+01:00

...a hacked plastic card...yep....today it is pretty clear that the numbers where 'hijacked' and misused! Because there is another unknown charge on there......THAT SUCKS but I am soooooo glad and relieved that I followed my instincts yesterday and blocked that 'whole-plastic-piece-with-lot's-of-numbers'.....Still no fun and I don't even want to think about what else they would have put on there, two days in a row now a charge......and I have a clue where they got it, we had problems last week logging in, in a favorite store ( starts with the first letter in the abc's ).....when you think you log in save, maybe their site was hacked or the start page was a 'fake'.....anyway.....IT SUCKS!!!! Now I have to wait and see....all I can take care of is taken care.

Merry Christmas....LOL.......wonder what else is coming next. So, make sure you check your little-precious-plastic-card-with-lot's-of-numbers......off to do some housework....can I scream? AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRGGGGGGGHHHH. Ah...., feeling much better - smile- I guess the challenges this year are not over, lol.....and no it did not take my humor but yesterday it was close (because this is serious).....so off to continue with my housework. That's life, there is a certain risk in everything, no way around ;)

Have a great day and check your 'numbers'.....smiles, Anke :)

PPS: I surrender! However it comes it comes...a challenging day once again.......;(
I WANT MY BIKE -NOW! Stupid winter season!

PPPS: James Morrison - Beautiful life - just a reminder to myself, lol....I NEED A BREAK - sounds like island time tonight, lol :))))))

So much for 'you-think-an-easy-stress-less-week' -sigh-

Christ-mess instead of Christmas - no offense to any religious group!

2011-12-20T10:29:00.001+01:00

Okay, this is not an offense to any religious group, especially Christians, I just caught the vibe that is lingering around me in the last week. I don't know why, but around Christmas people either are really happy or very sad.....and not to forget the fighting/stress involved in a family. So, like I said no offense to anybody, just something that made me think and I had to 'know', lol!!!!!
Well for me, this year it's the first 'real' Christmas as a whole individual! Even I am kind of following my-own-natures-religion, it's for me a celebration of all that what had happened this year and all the challenges involved and how much changed for the better for myself, for my inside. But I wouldn't have been able to do that without special individuals and friends in my life! All I can say is gratitude for all!

So, I hope little things won't stress the whole Christmas festive vibe this year....you never know but all you can try is to keep a distance from those vibes around you, in worst case scenario, LOL. Reminder: sometimes taking the serious out of seriousness is a very good choice!

Other than that I found my 'new-movement' - shoving snow away - I was a behaving citizen and followed the winter duties here in Germany (that was ironic meant) LOL :)

So, off the net to continue with my day...oh before I forget....test driving new winter tires today, they work, lol ! I didn't get stuck yet ( this is joke some will get, others not, I guess you can call that an insider joke - mischievous smile ;) )

Smiles, Anke :)

Quote for today:

' Tue das, was du fürchtest, und das Ende der Furcht ist gewiss.'

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

'Do, what you are scared of, and the end of the fear is certain.'

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Curious me found some time on the 'island'....

2011-12-19T18:12:00.000+01:00

....and want to share this quote:

“Psychologyrecognizes three basic types of functioning. The first is intellectual, orcognitive. The second is emotional, or emotive, and the third is active. ‘Intellectual’means one whose authentic urge is to know. (….) The second type is emotive, tofeel. For this type, knowledge is meaninglessunless he feels it . Something becomes meaningful to them only when one feelsit –one must feel it! Feeling is through a deeper center, the heart. Knowing isthrough the intellect. (…) Than the third type is, active – a creative type. Hecannot remain with knowing or feeling, he has to create. He can know onlythrough creation. Unless he createssomething, he cannot know it. Only through being a creator does he become aknower.”

-Osho, Emotional Wellness

So, what are you? Me? I am not quite sure yet, I guess I have several ways to figure out something, lol, maybe I meditate of it and create a Collage, lol, I guess that says it mostly, but like I said I have several approaches to reach 'knowing' in certain things.

Interesting question isn't it? - Makes my curious me, curious :)))

Smiles from the 'island', Anke :)

PS from later:

Hesitating before the start - to complicated in the brain?- more perspective- the way of equity- that the own will is counting- review-witty-serious-convincing and unagitated- lot's of questions-disillusioned-'we need time'- decode hierroplyphs- logic and right - concentration - fairness- under control- thinking around the corner- thinking big- elegance- missed chances- big blanc- the agony of choice- the decisive is the vision- what endure long, becomes finished

dancing legs and giggles- with lifeblood- soft-glowing in happiness- and joy- purest enjoyment- restless- grit your teeth and get to it- a heart- love-driven be an intense thirst of life- be careful goosebumbsinfection!- no system- sqalls into people-anything but hold back- ready to jump- lot's of drama-ropedancer on trip of heights- zappy, dainty and sensitive- magic moments- faintly time to catch a breath- between fire and dance- highly fun factor- standing, stomping, screaming and strike

grabbing for the stars-determination- bigger painting- dreaming out loud- with lot's of expression- Ideas for strong main points- clears the way- big motivation- 'here everything is clarified'-with surprises- intensive playful- on discovery tour- from the view in the depth of th soul- Playing and Fun- the embolder- the intrepidly- the inducer- Department for creative opponent attrition- improvising asked-for - the creator

Sorry for my high speed, I am not intenting to annoy or irritate or stress you, lol, I know it's sometimes quite a challenge to keep up with my 'thinking/doing' speed. It's sometimes quite a challenge for myself - loud laughing- but all good. That was quite fun! So what type are you?
And I guess to be a 'whole' human being, a balance between each one of those types would be good, so you can use from every type something in certain situations. Sounds so easy, but I know it's not! But worth a try and maybe someday you got it figured out :) Because being 'whole' feels good!

I could have just kept driving......BUT....

2011-12-19T12:35:00.002+01:00

This morning I felt like 'keep driving and just listening to music'.....BUT reality wanted something else from me, lol....blah.....bahh.......I want spring, fresh green, warmth, sun, and color in the landscape again.......sounds like some more island time, lol, which has to be postphoned, more imporant things are waiting to be DONE.

But I was reading some more interesting things in an Osho book I have to think about some more.....maybe I will pack it in a post.....but a question for you ahead? Are you knowing through thinking, feeling or creating?

So looks like today is a Marlon Roudette music day, especially City like this, Riding Home, Hold on me, and ANTI HERO well they are all pretty fun to drive with, so my picture in the head: no traffic, just driving and listening - another 'give-me-horsepower-and-good-soundsystem-post' ;)......ring ring ring.....okay back to reality...I know not possible...but maybe some day I will just do that, lol. sigh...

Oh, and probably no interactive posting today, due to an eye check soon and I don't know how good I will see later, lol....I guess today is a 'listening day for me' - with lot's of good music, because that's what I need today - smile-.

Have a great weekstart, smiles, Anke :)

PS from later: all good - I have tunnel vision -ha- but I am glad when it's over....write to you tomorrow :)